3 Days More To A Level Results

Hmm..A level result will be released next wednesday..am i nervous? hell yeah..im in a state of 2 minds..i can hardly sleep and eat well..will i pass with good grades this time around? im terrified by the thought of failing but im confident..its okay to feel petrified but i just dont want this feeling to affect the way i live my mundane life..im optimistic..anyway, it is of no use to feel afraid..it cant change the fact can it? the results are already there..i just cant be bothered to feel afraid..i leave this matter to God..all i can do now is to pray..however, i dont regret retaking my a level because i've given my all..my heart and soul..i hope the results will be fine..insha-allah..well, i'm just 4 to 5 weeks to POP (Passing Out Parade)..i'm really delighted..atlast POP..haha..training so far has been good but there are times when they are really taxing..especially dojo and swimming..my squad nicknamed the stairway to dojo and swimming complex the Stair Way To Hell..haha..so terrifying..IPPT was a let down but i have improved...not so bad for a 90kg plus monster like me..i aced my sit-up and shuttle run and did fairly well for standing broad jump..haha but i failed my pull up..i managed to pull 2 but atleast there's improvement..my 2.4km run is my best timing this year but i still cant beat my personal best of 9min 59s when i was in year 1 back in college..the timing for my previous was 11min plus..not bad..well atleast i passed..my squad mates are great except for some stupid mats and bengs..they seem not to be able to comprehend the meaning of the phrase, 'know when to be serious and when to play.' Sigh..that's that..all i know is that i will get away from most of them after POP..i hope to keep in contact with some of my great squad mates..hmm..i cant stand the feeling of not being able to play rugby..it has been months since i played rugby..i miss training so much..i'm craving for rugby..gosh..my injury..haha..luckily it hasnt been giving me pang..still limping but i will keep on going..not even a broken bone can stop me from playing rubgy..well, i want to ride a bike..i think when i get my next pay, i'll be going to BBDC to enrol myself for a bike classes..i want to ride a Ducati Evolution 2..gosh, so sexy that bike..at the mean time, no money no honey..lol..life has been smooth so far other than being haunted by my upcoming release of the a level result..hmm..im thinking of taking up Aikido too..seems fun..but i just need the right time to enrol..well, i cant say much...time is ticking right now at the internet cafe..lol..all thankz to my stupid computer..sigh..when can i get it repaired? well, i just hope my a level result will be fine..insha-allah...ok lah, i've got to go now...till we meet again...toodles...peace upon you...