Always There

Always There

When the world seems bleak
And my life is falling apart
When I almost give all up
I listen to my heart.

I listen to its beats
In them I hear your name
Every sound is encouragement
Even though they are the same.

Some times I feel like crying
And I too pondered about quitting
But the thought of you
Keeps my spirit fighting.

Every supplication
Every day
I whispered to Him
To show me the way.

In this lonely time
And on rocky bay
He gives me the strength
And you make my day.

I thank Him for everything
Without him I am nothing
I thank you for being there
Every time I am in despair.




Created by: Ahmad Fathi
Date: 11th September 2008

Throwing My Degree

I've finally made up my mind. I am going to discontinue my degree classes at UniSIM. I have consulted quite a few of my former colleagues and friends and have only made my decision after weighing both the pros and cons as well as doing some risk assessments. My final decision: quit while i can. Wakaka. I am sick and tired of listening to people already. I went to college because of my mom. I went to university because of both my parents and interest. Thus, from this day on, i will do what i love. Do not get me wrong as i really have interest in pursuing a degree but i found out that degree is too long of a wait, very expensive and most of the contents are crap. Let me elaborate more on the contents. Firstly, i want to set up a business of my own. Thus, as you would guess it, i would require basic and sound business knowledge. Yes, they are being offered at universities but so too are crappy modules that intend to eat your money up. Why am i wasting three to four years of my life studying for something that is too long to get, too expensive and full of crap modules and subjects that has nothing to do with setting up a business firm. Oh well, the educated ones will argue that university education structure is such that they guide you on how to be a 'complete' player. Why do not they admit that they need such degree certificates because this fucking nation is a certificate chasing country? Their notion: only those with at least a degree certificate can survive comfortably in Singapore. Yadda yadda yadda. I will prove that notion wrong one day, insha-allah. I feel so sorry for Singapore's education system. We are actually victims of our own success and the sad thing is, neither do we see it coming nor have we done any thing to rectify it. This education system is only catered to the sons and daughters of the elites because there is no such thing as level playing field in Singapore. Once you are poor, that is it for you. C'mon, if you guys do not believe me, do a survey on our education system, top schools, lousy schools, who have gotten the President's Scholarship so far and etc. I am smirking at the moment. Wakaka. So much for meritocracy and democracy. Hmmph. Anyway, lets deviate a little bit. So far for my 1st semester at UniSIM, ever thing is fine. I scored well for my first quiz, group based assignment and Effective Communication's (which is a replica of General Paper which i took in college) assignment. Then why quit? Stress? No time to study? Ok, let me be frank here. It is not stressful at all. My friend once told me that it is really difficult to fail in university and it is really true. GCE 'A' Level was hell but university is heaven and this is true. Then why do you still want to quit Fathi? I have my principles and beliefs that i have to adhere to and i will not change my stand and beliefs even a bit. Then what is your next plan Fathi? I have done some readings and found out that some private institutions do offer good packages for diplomas especially MDIS and Jamiyah Business School (JBS). However, i fancy the diploma course being offered by JBS. The course is straight forward, no frills, no crap modules, inexpensive and its duration is very short (10-12 months). After school, most probably i will be working first to earn some money for my business capital. Finally, all out attack on business. My main project: the Lion's Lair. You guys will soon find out. Discarding degree is really difficult and the decisions that i have made is not easy. People usually do not make the right decisions. But what the hell?! What is a right for one may be a wrong for others. This is my suggestion: live life the way you want it and do what you are passionate in. By doing so, at the end of the day, you will die smirking and having the final giggle. At least you can tell yourself i died not in a stressful manner and i enjoyed my life. Wakaka. What ever it is, i will not turn around and regret later. This is my final decision.

Live Life To The Fullest

Live Life To The Fullest

Life is not all about success
But how you use failure to succeed.
Life is not totally about winning
But how you fight back after losing.
Life is meaningless
But you have to define it.
Life is colourless
But you have to paint it.
Life is not always about being loved
But about loving.
Life is never an accident
But a gift from God.

Created by:
Ahmad 'King Crippler' Fathi
4th September 2008