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Saturday, December 25, 2004

Boy O Boy

Well, another hectic and lethargic week at TRACOM just ended and i'm glad. Haha. Well, let's see what happened in TRACOM starting from Monday.

Monday
Well, we were all still having the Monday blues and we really have no mood to presume training. Our mood really put us in lots of trouble. We were really tortured by the FI because we didn't move like lightning and shout like thunder as what FI Sam would say. Haha. Nothing much happened on Monday because most of the high authority figures were sorting out the administrative work and that slowed the whole activity. Well, i guess my squad have learned how to work together and that's a positive sign. In TRACOM, one way to survive is to cooperate and work as a unit amidst listening to instructions and executing commands given by the FI. Well, i was really unhappy with my IC, Farhan, because he thinks he knows everything but in actual fact, he knows nothing. Behind his confident and arrogant face is inefficiency and the unwillingness to accept other people's idea. Well, what can i say because i'm just a layman.

Tuesday
Basically i just found out that we'll be doing PT three times a day and that really sucks. Sometimes we'll do some marching exercise. Can you believe when i say that we didn't do a thing today except a PT before breakfast? Yesh. It's a slacking day today. Haha. I have one thing to complain. I come to TRACOM, hoping that i'll get fit and ready to serve the NS with the Fit Squad in January but not to listen to some old birds of the police force sing. Basically, instead of doing PT, we have to attend the TRACOM idol. Do you believe me now? Haha. Yesh, the Singapore Police Force TRACOM is actually organising their very own Idol singing competition. Haha. Luckily we didn't have to attend PT. Yahoo. Hmm..who were the singers? Most of them are has-beens policemen with big tummy. Haha. One by one, they sang in front of us and some seniors and all of them really sucks. Some were quite good especially this female officer who sang Mariah Carey's Hero. We were actually granted suffrage to determine the actual winner for that preliminary round but our vote constitute only 30% and the other 70% will be from the 3 judges. Haha. I guess the only female singer will win that round because most of us, i mean most, voted for her because she is hot!! Haha. Sorry guys, lady first. Haha. When she came out to sing, most of the trainees went bonkers and some became werewolves. Haha. You know what i mean. Our day went pretty fast today because of the TRACOM Idol. Haha. I LOVE NS!!!

Wednesday
Gosh. PT today was really tough. That Adam really grilled us alive. He is really a sadist. He made us do the infinity count jumping jack. I didn't actually do it because my arms were in pain. I've always believe that if someone who abuses his or her power, he or she will receive retribution. Bear this in mind Adam. Well, my squad, as usual, managed to skip the 2nd PT because the store room officers called for our help. They needed help to arrange some police uniform and accessories stock. Yippie! We wanted to skip the 3rd PT too but too bad we couldn't. The FI forced us to change quickly to our PT kit to do mess PT with the seniors and some reservists. It was not that tough after all. Haha. Well, i couldn't get to sleep because that night the temperature was hot and humid.

Thursday
Most of my squad mates reported sick and some injured themselves and had to take MC and have to do Orderly Barrack (OB). Thus, only 10 of us are able to do PT. I think they are just trying to bluff their way through and i'm telling you this. You can choose to relax now but you'll suffer later. Screw them man!! Gosh, i can't understand why some people just can't listen to instructions. There's this guy from VC Squad, a squad that consists of people who didn't complete their basic education, who looks like a retard and he doesn't seem to understand instructions given to him. When we were jogging together with the same timing, his timing will be different from others. When the FIs told him to correct his timing, he will just look at them blankly. I really pity him. It's not his fault. He's just slow. Nobody is born stupid. Other people, especially his squad members, will look down on him and at the same time they too will bully him. That's not the way guys. Would you want your son to be bullied if he was born the same way this guy was? I'm sure you be upset if other thugs bully your son. Gosh. People are sometimes evil. Well, we didn't do much today especially me. I wanted to read a novel by Nicholas Sparks but i found out that i brought the wrong book. I wanted to bring along with me A Walk To Remember but instead, i brought A Message In The Bottle. Sigh! Didn't get to read man!! All i did every night was to polish my boots and listen to songs from my MP3 player. The water parade was pathetic. Every night, some policemen doing night duty will come to all the coys and conduct water parade. The timing for my squad's water parade is erratic. Why do they have to come when i'm resting on my bed getting ready to fall asleep? I always have to rush down with my water bottle for the parade wearing only my boxer. I usually sleep with my sexy boxer. Haha. The policemen were flabbergasted to see me in boxer but they didn't care much though! Haha.

Friday
We were really afraid that we will not be able to book out because one of my squad mate lost out bunks' keys. We were really afraid that FI Panther, who is incharge of Echo Coy, would not let us go. This FI Panther, whose real name is Pannir, i guess people call him panther because this indian man is as black as a panther, is a lunatic. All he does every day is to sleep, eat, shit and utter rubbish. When he comes to work in the morning, he'll read the newspaper first, then proceed to the Echo's store room whislt telling the guys that he is doing some important stuff, which is smoking, then sauntered to his bed to go to sleep, then usually he'll wake up from sleep and proceed to smoke again and the smoke, smoke and smoke. All he did was to talk shit and smoke. He's a funny chap. Haha. He was really mad at us today because most of the injured guys doing OB pissed him off due to their slow movement in counting condemned police rain coats. The same squad mate of mine who lost the bunks' keys was reprimanded by panther because he served Panther boiling water instead of warm water! Now that's funny and at the same time stupid!! Haha. Well, it's a half day today and we can leave at 12.30pm because it's Christmas eve. Yesh. The muslims went to Bab Alwi mosque to do our Friday prayer and that mosque is really small but the atmosphere there was really fantastic. After Friday prayer, the muslims were allowed to go home on their own. Sir Mohd Noor drove my muslim squad mates and me to the mosque and i guess we are a lucky squad. After prayer, he drove me to the nearest bus stop where i can board my bus. Gosh, he's really a nice guy! I just found out that i have to report early on Sunday because i've to do OB. Sigh!

That was all that happened in my camp. Gosh, next 2 week is already our IPPT test and i'm unprepared for it. I'm confident in my broad jump, shuttle run, sit and reach, sit up and 2.4km run but not my chin up. I can't even do a single chin up. I usually get As for other stations but usually failed my chin up. If we pass our IPPT test 2 next weeks, it means games for us for the rest of our PT time. Those who fail the test will have to resume with PT with the Fit Squad in January. Gosh, i really want to pass this test because i really want to start training with the Singapore Police Rugby Team. GOD, I want to pass this test. By hook or by crook or by hook and by crook, i'll do anything to pass this bloody IPPT test. Insha-allah! Well, i really miss my friends. Luckily tomorrow i'll be seeing Harun, Khamsya and Hanan for some street soccer session at Chua Chu Kang. Haha. Gosh, most of my squad mates have girl fwens except me. Every night, they'll talk on the phone with their gal fwens and i'll be like polishing my stupid drill boots. Gosh, how fortunate of them to have gal fwens. I'm like so jealous and at the same time, i pity myself. Well, what can i do rite? Sigh! Well, love is bull shit. Haha. I'm such a sore loser. Hahaha! Okay, i shall stop this entry here because i'm really tired right now. To all my Christian fwens, i wanna wish you all a very happy Christmas and to all my fwens out there, happy new year. Stay happy, aight? Adios!

Friday, December 17, 2004

Training To Be Crime Buster

I'm back. Haha. Wow, i miss the outside world. Haha. Well, i'm out of Police Camp because there is no 10 days confinement for the prep course. Haha. Luckily i can book out or else!! Well, life in police camp at Thomson is pretty fucked up especially for an overweight guy like me. The first day at camp was pretty fine. Nothing much happened because we had to sort out the administrative work. It was fucking tideous. In the camp, i can see all sort of people. There's the gangster guys, the dunno-wat-to-do geeks, the smart aleks, the stupid jerks and cool people just like me. Haha. The second day was a massacre. The Field Instructors really tortured us madly. One instructor stood up amongs the rest. If my memory serves me well, Adam, a CLT at NCC Sea about 3 to 5 years ago, is now a Field Instructor at TRACOM. He really never change. Still the same fucked up sadist guy. He's a big shot now but the fuck!! I can beat his ass faster than he can dig his nose. He's a NATO (No Action Talk Only). I still don't understand why the instructors have to be so fierce. I bet they don't get extra income for being fierce! What i don't like about other trainees is that most of them are stupid. They seem to have difficulty comprehending instructions. Why can't they understand 'Left' and 'Right'? Screw them! Hmm...the food there really sucks! Yucks! Well, what can i do about it? Too bad! Hmm... the female regular officers there were superb. Not bad! Most of them are P.R.E.T.T.Y. Haha! Gosh. Well, i didn't smoke for 4 days and that's pretty bad for my health. Haha. We were not allowed to smoke inside the police compound. Well, i've got good bunk mates. In my room, there's Ajay who only managed to finish O Level, Benjamin who was from SAJC, Ranjay who was from NJC, and Cal who just graduated from MDIS. They seem pretty good to me. Ben and Cal always talk about sex and party and club every night. They're cool guys but they don't share the same interest as me. Ranjay is pretty quiet but he seems to be able to withstand my jokes. Haha. I called him a Nationalist just because he was from National Junior College. Haha. Ajay is quiet a nice guy and he seems friendly. He talks much too and that keeps us alive. I'm from 118th intake and 52nd Squad. My bunk is at Echo Coy and the building is located at the far end of the academy. At first glance, the building looks haunted but who cares? The people there obviously disrespect fat people. How can they give us such a place to house in? Again, screw the system! 3rd day was pretty bad too. We managed to sweat and burn down fats by doing 3 physical training every day. We did PT before breakfast,right after breakfast and right before dinner. My whole body is aching right now all thanks to the FIs. I hate FI Muttaqin. Every morning, his job is to pump people by spelling out P.H.Y.S.I.C.A.L T.R.A.I.N.I.N.G I.N.S.T.R.U.C.T.O.R M.U.H.D M.U.T.T.A.Q.I.N. The reason behind this is that he wants people to know and memorise his name. I too remember this guy. I think he was from Fuchun Secondary. Fuck him! Riverside Sec Sch is better and the best. Haha. If i ever find his ass outside of the camp, the first thing that i'll do is to grab his ass, do some german suplex unto him, sit on him and punch his face while shouting out my name, A.H.M.A.D F.A.T.H.I C.R.I.P.P.L.E.R. Haha. The leader of my squad is a confuse guy. I hate him because he acts as if he knows what to do but in the actual fact, he knows nothing. He is inefficient and fucking slow! No hard feelings Farhan. Guess what? I fell off my bed while sleeping. At that time i was dreaming about smoking cigar when i suddenly woke up because of the fall. I hurt my toe and knee. Gosh. The last day of the week, which is on the fourth day, Friday, was a super slacking day. We didn't do much. Before breakfast we had PT and after breakfast, we were suppose to have another PT but we were stopped by our Coy in-charge, SSG Panni aka Panther. We escaped PT! Yahoo! After that, we went to the gynasium to get out second pair of running shoes. All we have to do was to wait and waiting really killed time. After getting out shoes, we were supposed to have our 3rd PT but my squad again managed to skip PT because we have an interview with our squad officer in-charge. We have to report back for PT but too bad we have to help another high ranking officer to do some 'FUNNY' chore. Guess what we did? We were called by Encik Ahmad to cut down some banana leaves. Haha. I'm not kidding! They needed some banana leaves for tommorrow's Rugby Police Night. Haha. 2 senior officers gave us a ride back to our bunk where we can fing some banana plants behind our bunk's so called garden. We have fun man!! Haha. After that, we went back to out bunk to clean it up before we book out. Surprisingly, some of us couldn't go home because we have to do Orderly Barrack, aka Guard Duty, for a day. I was one of the unlucky ones. Ranjay and me was suppose to do it today till tomorrow but the plan went hay-wired because of miscommunication and they have to cancel it at the very last moment. I was relieved and happy because i've got to go home to rest just in time for tommorrow's Police rugby match between the Married and Singles. It will be held at Police Academy (PA). After getting the green light to go home by SSG Muhd Noor, i went to the rugby pitch to meet Aidil. Wow, i managed to get a glimpse of one of the most beautiful touch girl in Police touch team. I don't know her name but she has a boy friend and her bf is one of the rugger of the Police Team. His name is Ahmad Zohri. Why must beautiful girls be taken up? What do i get then? Haha. Aidil and me went to the town to meet Zaid and Bernard to have our dinner. I didn't eat much because i was full. Zaid gave me a stick of cigarrete and my first puff after 4 days was superb. I was craving for cigarette. I found out that it's bad for your health if you decided to stop smoking suddenly. You must slowly cut down on the number of sticks. Now, i have promised myself only to smoke on weekends where i'll be out of camp. This is safer i guess. In 6 months time, i guess i'll be able to stop smoking. I guess so! Well, i have a match tomorrow and i guess i better sleep. I better make full use of weekends and enjoy them to the fullest. Yummy! Well, until then my fwens. Adios. Take care!

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

Here I Go

Hmm...i'm suppose to write this entry yesterday but too bad i went home late. I reached home about 12.50pm today and i'm suppose to sleep right now and instead, here i am writing my blog entry. Well, i'll be enlisted to Police today at 8.30am. Am i excited? Not at all. How am i feeling? Confused. I'm confused as to sign up with Police, repeat A Level or go to Polytechnic after serving my NS. My uncle told me to sign up so as to lighten my parents' burden. I guess that's true but unfortunately i have to weigh other options too. This is my future not my parents'. My dad wanted me to sign up but he doesn't want to tell me that because he doesn't want to hurt my feeling. He knows i hate to serve especially the government. Come on dad! How successful can i be by becoming a policeman? Sometimes i hate my dad because he doesn't know how to use his brain. All he thinks is about himself. He usually disregard my feelings. He just wants himself to be happy. C'mon! This is my future we are talking about. When i become successful one day, i want to make sure that 4% of the credit goes to me and 1% goes to my parents and 95 % goes to God. Mom and Dad, with all respect, i hope i can knock some sense into you guys someday. Sometimes i wonder why God gave us brains when most of the time we don't use it properly. My parents love to give stupid ideas, others killing others, rape, crime and etc. These are all the people who doesn't use brains. Hmm..I'll miss my friends especially those who are close to me. I really do not know what to say. Gosh, time passes pretty fast. I heard all sort of stories about the Police Academy at Thomson Rd. I heard that it is infested with ghost and the place isn't 'clean'. Hmm...what do i think of that? Well, if we just mind our own business, those ghosts will not disturb us. Just stay calm and observe my surrounding first. Hmm...I don't want to talk much when i enter the camp because i just want to observe my comrads and i want to filter those who i can trust and those who i can't. This is about the survival of the fittest. I'll just keep a low profile. Haha. Well blog, i have to end it here because my obligation is now to sleep. To all my friends, good luck and i'll miss you guys especially 12.15.8 12.1.25 11.23.1.14. See you guys around! Au Revoir.

Friday, December 10, 2004

Unlucky Me

Today seems to be an unlucky day for me. I woke up having this pathetic stomach ache and my flu has been bedevelling me for 5 days now. Guess what? I played a friendly match with other schools for the first time after my A Level. It was tiring. Besides that, i was sent off because of elbowing Millenia Institute's (MI) Inside Center. I was playing as prop today and the feeling was fantastic. My happiness was short lived by that elbow incident. I wanted to crash the inside center by using my forearm but i accidentally went high and my shoulder hit his left eye. He went down immediately and i found out that he was bleeding. He had 3 deep cuts an it was bad. I felt sorry for him. It was just an accident and Mr Seah went berserk on me. He banned me from playing anymore frienly matches but i just wanted to tell him that i can't play anymore friendly matches for JJC because i'll be enlisted next week. I might be playing against JJC. Haha. Now it seems like everybody is pointing fingers at me. A while ago i was a hero and then i turned out to be a villain. I'm so unlucky. What have i done wrong to be unlucky in everything i do or say? Well, atleast i wasn't a sore winner. The MI guys were sore losers. They didn't want to shake my hand after the match. I understand how they felt but their action doesn't justify sportsmanship. They are truly what i call a stupid bunch of sick people who doesn't know the difference between intentionally and unintentionally. They sucks big time. It's not that i'm arrogant but they don't take into consideration my feelings. Put themselves in my boots first before they act. Well, we had BBQ just now at West Coast Park BBQ Pit number 12. It was fucked up. It was suppose to be our BBQ party and we, the seniors, were suppose to be served but unfortunately, we have to serve ourselves. We cooked and grilled all the food ourselves. My stomach ache gave me a problem and i couldn't enjoy the BBQ party. After the BBQ, we managed to poled Vickram, public enemy number 1, Alex and Kai Cheng. It was awesome. Vickram received the worst hit. We spread his legs wide and held him tight before ramming his dick to the lamp post. By the look of his expression after that violent action, i know it was super painful. Haha. We rammed his dick with tremendous speed. Gosh! Haha. After that, we went home. I didn't get to wish Sadiq all the best for his NS call up but i guess he knows that i have the intention to do so. He's like my best buddy in and outside school. Without him, i bet life in school will be dull. Sadiq, thank you for your companionship and i want to wish you all the best for National Service. Kalau dah dapat pangkat tinggi jangah lupa kawan. Haha. I'll wait for your sister!! Always remember that! Berangan seh Ahmad!! Well peeps, i have to end this entry here. See you around and may God bless you all! Adios!

Sunday, December 05, 2004

The Most Beautiful Thing In Life

Hmm...i forgot to update about the SRU Beach Touch Rugby competition yesterday. It was superb man. The sun, sand and the sea were really fantastic. I miss hanging around with them. Those were the days man when my friends and I often went kayaking in the river and the sea. We enjoyed the freedom and the stench of sea water. I miss salt. Haha. Well, my team lost in the beach touch. We crashed out of competition after we were beaten by some RI freaks. To make matter worse, we actually lost in the sudden death. Luckily no one was dead. Haha. After that, we enjoyed music played by local bands. Yamaha was organising this band competition entitled Asian Beat and it was just beside the beach touch rugby competition playing area. Guess what? Suhaimi, my rugby idol, was in my team. He is slow but his passing is top notch and he is flamboyant. I like his style of playing, i mean in terms of contact rugby, because it is appealing to the eyes. He likes to crash and that entertains me. Haha. I would want to change my style of playing just like Suhaimi's. I love to crash especially when it comes to sending opponents away to the ground. The sight of that ruthless agression on the field is marvellous. It's a beauty. Well, i didn't do much today because there wasn't anything to do actually. Haha. Holiday is boring just like the work of a security guard. Haha. Hmm...i can't wait for JJC's next Test match against Greenridge Secondary School Rugby Team. I really want to play in that match as either a hooker or a flanker. I want to prove to Mr Selamat that i can play well as a forward. I'm sick and tired of sitting on the bench. I hate to warm up the bench. The feeling is totally unpleasant. Let's now talk about beauty. What is beauty? It's really difficult to define beauty because beauty means different thing to different people. Beauty lies in the eye of the beholder. If i ask you what's the most beautiful thing in your life, can you answer it? I'm sure it's tough but let me stress it out, life itself is beautiful. It's the little things in life that make it beautiful. Beauty to me means to wake up beside your wife on the bed in the morning and know that she loves you, to see your wife's special glow when she's pregnant, to hear the laughter of your children, to know and see how your children grow and mature, to see them becoming samaritans who are successful, to know that you know the 'Truth' and to be able to do what i enjoy and love most in life. To me all those are beautiful things. Those beautiful things will make my life beautiful. Life is actually a gift from God and it is never an accident. We must all live life to the fullest. I know that sometimes Heaven seems to be unfair but i don't think it is. When the going gets tough, the tough gets going. The previous statement will give you a fright but you have to know that difficulty is a test from God. Once you overcome it, the prize is wonderful and sweet. Trust me. I guess next year will be a test for me. Do i want to repeat or sign a bond with the Police Force? This is a gruesome mental challenge for me. Well, can't write any longer because my eye lids are getting heavier as time elapsed. Adios!

Thursday, December 02, 2004

Life

Well, i've quit my job as a security guard at Suntec City. It was tough man and at the same time pretty boring to the max. That job is a brain cell killer. During that time, i've got to see all walks of life. From the rich to the poor, from the polite to the rude and many more. There are those who look down on me for working as a security guard. That job was like an eye opener for me. That was an experience that i'll never forget. Singaporeans are mostly polite and friendly but there are those who think highly of themselves. One thing for sure, they can't make it far in life with that type of attitude. Never discount others. Respect others like how you would want others to respect you. Remember this, what goes around comes around. Hmm...i went to collect my pay the other day and without any delay,i went straight to Aljunied to purchase a mp3 player at Audio House sale. Not a bad deal though. $259 for a 512MB mp3 player from JNC. Well well, i'll be going to NS soon and i guess i'll meet lots of people there too. I just remain quiet and observe my surrounding. I just want to see the true colours of Singaporeans. I didn't do much today as i've been hit by flu. Pretty annoying. I went down for training today and i just realised that i've not lose my touch. Haha. I can't wait for this Saturday's Beach Touch at Sentosa. I really want to win man. I hope reporters and journalists from IRB will come down to do some articles or report on the Beach Touch. Haha. I guess it should be fun. I need to buck up on my fitness and health man. They sucks. I guess it's because of smoking. When can i stop smoking. Maybe after NS because the Police Force doesn't allow smoking during work. That should do me a favour i guess. Syaz sms-ed me just now to say whether i still remember about the promise that i've made. She insisted that i stop smoking. I guess she's a sweet girl even though i don't know her that well. She's a very caring girl too. I should be lucky to have some friend like her. Well, what can i say more? Maybe she's a blessing in disguise from God above. Who knows. Other than that, i really have nothing else to say. Life's pretty fine i guess after being slaughtered by A Level. Hmmm...that's all for now. Thank you God for every thing. Alhamdullilah!