Selamat Hari Raya (Happy Eid' Fitri)

Haha..this is really early for me to wish all my friends selamat hari raya but i can't do it a day before hari raya because firstly my computer is down and secondly i bet the college will be closed on that day. Sigh. Damn the trojan virus. Anyway, yeah, it has been a rough and pleasant ride at jjc for me in year 2005 and even an unpleasant one in 2003-2004. I made mistakes that hurt others alot and i mean alot. Hmmm...let me see who i've hurt so far? haha..Yeah..there's my little friend Nazriff..remember the choke hold? i'm really sorry abt it...it was a spur of the moment..i should have told u guys that once my adrenaline is set free, i can't control my self and this is the same for my anger...but over the years, i've managed to bring it down to a healthy level...yeap, then there's syaz...sorry girl for hurting you with all my shenanigans...i should have acted smarter than before...i'm sorry again...then there's my mom...i've been a bad son...you know i smoke but you maintain you composure...i know you are angry with me but i'll try and quit in the near future...then i failed my A level last year and i've disappointed you but you kept your spirit up and believe that i can do better this year...for that, i thank you...i'll do my best...just prepare the money for my place in NUS or SMU...then there's dad...you gave me lee way but i abused it at times...i'm sorry...there's so many people who i want to seek forgiveness from but it is just too much...to all who knows me and whom i've hurt mentally, physically or emotionally, i'm really really really sorry...I'm helpless at this...if only i know, i wouldn't have done those stupid mistakes that have hurt many people...i'll strive to be a better man...yeap...hari raya is coming but i really don't feel like celebrating it because it coincides with A level...damn...nvm....there's always next year...this fasting month have taught me many valuable lessons...firstly, patience is a virtue...secondly, never take things for granted...thirdly, i now have a firm belief that no matter what you do God is always beside you...yeap...that's all i can fit in my entry this time around...i should be going right now...to all my muslim fwens, SELAMAT HARI RAYA and to all my other fwens, happy holidays. God bless you all!!

Ahmad Fathi - Step By Step

Every time I'm in loneliness
You're always there for me
You showered me with happiness
But eventually you failed to see

It's not that i don't appreciate you
But somehow i want us to be together
I want to be beside you
And be yours forever

We are two worlds apart
But let's put our differences aside
We were once strangers at start
Now let true love resides

I know our paths have just crossed
And i'm trying to understand your way
Even for a moment i won't pause
For i don't want you to go away

It's wrong to say i love you
Worst still if i rush things through
But i can't help loving you
My feelings for you is true

There's no one i'd rather see
Even right from the start
There's no place i'd rather be
Than to be in your heart

I'll wait even till my death
For patience is a virtue
Even until my final breath
I will always love you

16/10/2005

Ramadan

Yeap..fasting started yesterday and it wasn't so bad..i have yet to accustom myself to hunger because it seems like i can't mug when i'm hungry..haha..hmm...prelim results just came out couple of days ago and i did badly..i got D for C Maths, D for Econs and F for Physics..i've got only myself to blame this time around..i have to admit that i was ill prepared for prelim..i concentrated too much on econs. I totally forgot about maths until i was left with a week for maths before the Prelim starts. I was a dead meat..I didnt practise much physics as i was too busy with only making physics notes..Now that i'm done with Maths and Physics notes, now till A level, what i will do is just to practise both of these subjects..Damn..im totally furious with my maths result...A for Mid year and now a D for Prelim...totally unacceptable..but hey, look on the bright side of life...a D for maths without even touching or practising much for maths..i will get A for Maths in the A level, god willing! Then comes econs...haha..my first time in my life and i swear it was my first time passing an econs test...not bad but can be better...i got 18/30 for econs MCQ, 38.5/75 for paper 3 and 28/50 for paper 2. Paper 3, the essay, was okay...its just that i chose a wrong Qn and it screwed up everything..i essays on interest rate and impacts of forex on the economy...i got 17.5/25 for the latter and 14/25 for the former...gosh, the micro topic killed me...i shouldnt have done the essay on Elasticity of Demand...i got only 7/25...haha...anyway, yeap...physics was atrocious...didnt practise at all...wth...i'm gonna prove mr tan wrong...victory lies in Singapore and not China..haha..he is always with his China's theory...like what the hell...who dunno that...anyway, yeap...Shorty's birthday is next month and i dunno wat to buy for her...hmmm...dunno lah...i'll think abt it..she touched my belly today...haha..that's my asset okay...hmmph...haha...yeah, i have yet to get my enlistment letter and i hope i'll be enlisted to police back maybe some time in March...i wanna work first and earn some money...then i can jolly after A level...yahooo...yeah...that's all..anyway, i better end my entry here because there's more to cover in maths...sigh...yeap yeap yeap...to all my muslim fwens, happy ramadan and to all of my fwens taking A level this year...all the best dudes and gals...Ciao!!