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Sunday, October 31, 2004

Ahmad Fathi - My Medication Is You

My Medication Is You

Never have I felt this feeling before
This feeling that I’m craving for more
Each time I look into your eyes
I can do nothing but be hypnotised
Each time I hear your lovely voice
To love you is the only choice
Something in you that I really like
I have this feeling of holding you tight
Each day without seeing you is an agony
I feel something missing and I’m lonely
To see your face is a medication
Because you bring me jubilation
But I just want to owe you forever
So that I won’t fall love sick ever



Wednesday, October 27, 2004

Ahmad Fathi - Friends Forever

Friends Forever

As we carry on with our own life
We will still remember our histories
That are sometimes sad and funny
All the stuff we did together
Learned and gained from one another

We always take things for granted
And never know how precious friends are
We know that friends in need are friends indeed
They feel hurt and happy by what we do or say
And now they are far away from our bay.

After the long bonding with our friends
We are now sailing towards separation
All the fruitful events that took place
Will now be carved into our memories
And be analyzed as our histories

Flabbergasted when we saw our fate
It’s now or never and that we have to know
Friends will always be beside us.
No matter what we do, in them we can trust
Because they will always love us.

It’s up to us to regard our friends
After being separated for so long
Now we know what friends are for
Because friendship couldn’t be on loan
And you know you will never walk alone





Until Then...

Well,i think i've to reduce on the amount of time i spend on the internet.This means i'm not going to send any more blog entry unless there is something interesting happening on that particular day itself.Well,i'm going to miss my blog.Haha.I think i'm wasting time surfing the net.Guess what,an old friend of mine took the effort to look for me.Her name is Shahidah aka Shasha and she found me in Friendster.Gosh,i've been searching high and low for her but to no avail but i must thank God for letting her find me.Phew!Well,she's my old school mate way back at Si Ling Primary School and she's also my class mate in Riverside Secondary for 2 years.Her mom knows me and Arrauf well and i often called to talk to her mom. Actually i wanted to talk to Shasha but i usually end up talking to her mom instead because her mom usually picks up the phone.I understang that this friend of mine under went so many set backs and i've been a bad friend.In times of hardship,i wasn't there for her.Gosh,i must punish myself.Sorry Shasha! Anyway,i'm glad we have found each other back again but i have yet to talk to her.It's been a while.Anyway,i've got nothing else to say and i shall end it here but before i go,i'll make sure i put up a poem for my graduating friends of JJC.May God bless you all! Adios!

Tuesday, October 26, 2004

12.32pm...12.33pm...12.34pm...Gosh,Today's Boring

Gosh,it's exactly 1 week to A Level.After many years of sitting for exams,i couldn't feel the stress now.I guess i'm immuned to examination.C'mon man.Look what the teenagers in Singapore have to undergo.After A Level is through,i'm not going to look back at it.That's it for me.It's time to earn money and i mean plenty of them.Let's be entrepreneurial and creative.Sigh.I think i've done so many sins and need to redeem myself.After A Level,inshallah,i'll do some charity work.Well,i studied at school today and we broke fast at a nearby coffee shop.Yeah,my revision is still going slow.I hope i won't end up failing.Let's keep it slow and steady because slow and steady wins the race.Haha!Anyway,i'm thinking of quiting smoking for the better.Hmm..seriously,it sucks as it waste my money and affect my health.I want to live to see and participate in the next Crusade Wars.Haha.Well,a warrior has to do what a warrior has to do.After all,i'm Crippler.Haha.So crappy.Anyway,this whole week,i assume,seems to be boring.It's all now about revision.No more time to slack.Got to end what i started:A Level Education.Hmmm...let's accomplish Mission ABC.Good luck to me and may God bless Palestine!!

Monday, October 25, 2004

The Battle Has Begun

Today is the first day of A Level examination for me.I underwent the physics practical today and gosh,to my bewilderment,the paper was managable.However,i think i've screwed up some where.It's the 1st experiment that i don't understand how to take the period of oscillation for the hanging magnet.Sigh!Hmm...i didn't study at all today.I ended my exam at 3pm and after that,me and aidil just went home.I guess i can see some people already gearing up for A Level.The battle has begun.Haha.Gosh,i'm still semi ready.Well well well.Hahaha.Manchester Utd have just kicked Arsenal fucking %$*^%(&^(*&%$&%^((* asses!! Arsenal deserves it but at least they went down creating history in EPL. Gosh,instead of studying today,i was totally engrossed in reading Dan Brown's Da Vinci Code.That book,i swear,is really a superb book.Luckily Aizat lend it to me so that i can take my time reading it.Haha.Thankz Zat.I was flabbergasted on the accuracy of the book.It is so precise.To prove it,i went to google.com to search for this Jewish ancient secret society group called Priory of Sion and this Catholic extremist and fundamentalist group called Opus Dei.Gosh,these groups still exist today.Haha.I'm now interested in cryptogram and the art of code breaking after reading that book.Yahooo!Haha.Anyway,i've got to go now because i've got to study early tomorrow. Now my mission is to annihilate Priory of Sion and Opus Dei. God Bless the 'Truth'.

Sunday, October 24, 2004

Ahmad Fathi - I'll Wait For You Lay

I’ll Wait For You Lay

Ever since I lay on you a stare
I just can’t resist your blissful flare
Of how you make your presence stay
And you simply make my day

Even when the rain keeps pouring down
When the sun is not around
You shine your light throughout on me
Brighten my path for me to see

I never thought that this will happen
My feelings for you grew out of a sudden
God gave me this wonderful moment
To lay my eyes on a special woman

I’ve been waiting for you girl
But you simply keep quiet
Every second pass and I’m growing tired
But I know it’s worth waiting
Never have I thought of quitting

How I wish that you can stay
Keep me safe on heaven’s bay
Listen to what I’ve to say
Even till my dying day
I’ll wait for you Lay

P.S This was written by me when i had a crush on Lay.I guess i have to carry on with my life now because our paths never cross.I have to get a grip on life now and stop living in an ivory tower where only fantasy exists.Well,like many would say,there are many fishes in the sea.Life is a journey of learning.It's never a waste to live your life.To those disheartened guys,don't worry.Don't go after love because love will eventually find you.Sometimes,love is just beneath your nose.Happy loving.

Irritating Peeps

Sigh.I didn't even touch my books today.Haha.What the hell! Anyway,that Harun is really irritating.Why in the blue moon would he want to know whom i made the promise to.Gosh.It's suppose to be a secret.Haha.He kept bugging me all the time.Sigh!Anyway,i'll be sitting for my physic practical tomorrow and it should be easy,i hope.It's time to kick some ass!Hmm,we were discussing about our cycling expedition just now at the coffee shop.Hmm...this expedition should be fun man.Just imagine a Guys Night Out.Haha.We'll be cycling around the island.Haha.Gosh!I really have nothing else to say but i'll complement my short entry with another poem.My mind is on the big match later on between Man Utd and Arsenal.I hope the Devils kick the fucking Gunners' asses.Well,bye now! Adios.

Saturday, October 23, 2004

A Night Out

Hmm...i managed to do some maths today at Raffles' Hospital Banquet while waiting for my peeps before we break fast.Hmm...i never knew doing maths was fun.Muahaha.Well we broke fast at the Banquet and after that,we headed to Bugis Junction to browse through the sandal stores there.Aidil went to the Barcode to look for a new pair of sandals.I saw a pretty pair of shoes and really wanted to buy them but too bad my dad ordered me to buy for myself a pair of running shoes.Then,we walked all the way from Bugis Junction to Peninsula Plaza to check out on shoes there but to our surprise,most of the shops there have already been closed.What the hell!We managed to check on a few collectible items at one of the shop and guess what we saw?Action figures of our childhood cartoons like power rangers,aliens,spawn and bla bla bla.Haha.So childish!We proceeded to Funan IT mall's Swensen's and Aidil treated us fries and Giant Earthquake Ice Cream.Muahaha.So delicious.After eating,we walked all the way to Boat Quay before going to Raffles Place MRT Station.Haha.On our way,we met a few homosexual guys who kept shouting here and there.I feel so digusted but on second thought,i feel sorry for them.When i thought of them,i felt extremely sorry for my best friend Shafiq.Well,that's another long story which i don't want to unearth.Let it rest!Anyway,we sauntered our way through Boat Quay and we passed by pubs and clubs.To our dismay,we saw this Malay girl who worked as a waitress wearing a pink tube.I really pity her parents.She even have the cheek to ask me whether i would want to enter the bar as there are bar top dancers and i have to pay only $20 to enjoy free flow of beer.Come on man! Do i look like Stone Cold Steve Austin the beer drinker?Sheesh.Oh please!I know my future 'bar top dancer',which is my future wife,is waiting for me on the bed.Muahaha.Screw them!This holy month shouldn't be filled with vices,filth and lust.I hate them for this!Anway,on our way to Raffles MRT,at the steps of OCBC building,we saw Mariam and Azman.Muahaha.Zaid,i hope you aren't angry!Hehe.We stopped for a while to say hi to them.They seemed happy but ok,i shall not say anything more.SHUT UP!Hehe.We took a lot of photos with Shafa's digicam and one of the funniest photo was me doing the dracula pose with two fries in my mouth while in Swensen's.Haha.Well,i really have to end it here because it's getting late and my legs,shut up...i know you guys are tired...let me end this entry first.Sorry for that interruption!Well,i shall end it here.Good night to all my peeps especially the JJC Malaygangstars. All the best.Adios!!

Friday, October 22, 2004

My Fault?

Today i guess was the most productive day for me.Did math and physics.Haha.I guess i have to work on the speed because it's too slow.Any way,i got home late today and i was reprimanded by my dad.It's not my fault.Gosh.I got home on the dot to break fast but little did i know that my mom didn't cook because we were suppose to have or dinner at my aunt's.My dad was frustrated because they have to wait for me and they didn't have any chow to eat but it's still not my fault.Blame the bus and haha,my ez-link pass went out of value.Sheesh.But it's still not my fault.Anyway,i'm suppose to eat outside tomorrow and i have yet to purchase a new pair of shoes.What should i buy tomorrow.Well,it depends on my budget.I hope my dad gives me $1000000...haha...in my dream.I wonder when i can get my first million dollar.Haha.Hmmm...went to study at McDonalds just now after dinner.It wasn't futile because i managed to do some physics questions and at the same time puff some cigarettes.I promised someone that i'll be reducing on the number of sticks i smoke.So i only smoked 3 sticks just now.Good start Ahmad.I usuall smoke about 8 sticks a day but this someone wanted me to reduce.Haha.Well,it's on my behalf too i guess because i'm really worried about my health too.I don't want to die generating feelings of sorry for others.I want to die leaving behind a legacy.I want to die knowing that i've served God and my family well.Lastly,i want to die after getting married.Muahahaha.Well,i've got to go now because the bed is making awful lots of noise already.It's bed time.Adios Astalahuega!!

Thursday, October 21, 2004

What's Wrong?

Today is a fucked up day.My revision for A Level didn't go well.It was fucked up i tell you.Look what the Government is making us do.I hope they are happy!NVM.Anyway,the school was a bit noisy and there were some cute kids at our canteen making awful lots of noise.Gosh,i'm left with less than to 2 weeks to A Level yet i'm not blasting on my mugging.This shouldn't be the case Ahmad Fathi.Listen,it's time you kick ass Ahmad and prove your teachers wrong.Let's shut their traps for once especially your Econs teacher.Screw them when you get back your results.Gosh,i'm not the usual me.When i was at Riverside and was about to sit for O Level,i was diligent and hard working and thank God that my effort was paid.When i entered Jurong Institute for the 1st 3 months,i was hard working.People said that me and Aizat were crazy dudes who,despite knowing that it was not necessary to study for the 1st 3 months, mugged like there hell.What's happening to me?I think Aizat,Shafiq and me should have been at the same college because each of us go well hand in hand.Back at those glory days in RS,we were like motivating and cajoling each other.We worked well as a team.Sigh! I guess God has a different plan for me.Anyway,that's that.I really have to work now.Suffer now and i can enjoy later.FUCK! Sometimes in life, you can never totally make your own choice.You choose but God decides but at the same time, you have to pray and work hard.Well,i really forgot to wish Lay Kwan,Hazel and Jolene all the best for their A Level Biology Practical.I feel so bad.Anyway,you girls,if you are listening,i wish you girls all the best. No turning back now for us.Like Nike would always say, 'Let's Do It'. Adios!!

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

Ripley's Believe It Or Not

Today isn't a pleasant day.Didn't do much revision and managed to do only math.At the library today,the was a fiesca.A lady was having a verbal war with her husband.It was fucking noisy and i can't even concentrate.At first it was just some scoldings but it ascelated to shoutings.Luckily some samaritans alerted the security guards.The commotion ended with tranquility.Peace at last.Hmm...studied with Sadiq,Maly and Aizat at the library.I swear it was a dull day.Sigh.What the fuck.Any way,a friend of mine told me the other day about the end of the world.He said that in 2025,there'll be a massive war.I guess it is the war that we have been waiting for:the Crusade War.Hmm...if you want to believe what i'm about to say,go ahead but to those who disagree with me,i'm sorry but no offence. A Jewish guy,who predicted that 9/11 will happen,predicted that the 3rd Crusade War will happen.This time around,it's non-muslims versus muslims.He also predicted that Canada,Japan and some country will turn out to be Muslim countries.Imam Mahadi will assist the muslims in the 3rd war but as predicted by him and some of 'the muslim intelligence',the Muslim will loose.However,Jesus a.s will come down to help the Muslim to win the 4th Crusade War.After this war,it's Dooms Day.Hmm...what do you think about that?It's either you believe it or not.Well,i shall not continue further about this because i'm sure this is a sensitive issue. Hmm...i'm feeling kind of sleepy right now because i didn't have enough sleep today.Hmm...i'm still excited over my enlistment to the Police Force.How will i fare?Can i play rugby there?Sigh! Well, i shall end it here but before i go, here's some poem...

Before you sleep today
Spend some time to pray
That you loved ones are safe at bay
Contemplate about your day today
Is today better than yesterday?
If not,ensure that tomorrow will
be better than today.
When you close your eyes today
You'll know someone cared about you
yesterday,
cares about you today
And will care about you tomorrow
and everyday.

Adios!!

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

Police Academy

Surprise surprise! I've got my enlistment letter already and i'll be posted to the Police Force.Muhahahah.That's my dad's wish and it really came true.Now, my next mission is to tell my rugby coach,Selamat, about this.You see,he's the head coach for Police Rugby Team.Muahahha.Hmmm...the sad part is that i'll have to report to Police Academy on 14th December.This means i've got 3 weeks after my last A level paper before serving my nation.How to enjoy life after A level?That really sucks!For that, i've got to say this,"FUCK u government".Muahahha.Well,what kind of job can i get after A Level?I'll be like working only for 3 weeks.Well,my aim is to work to purchase iPod Mini.Muahhaha.Sigh!I bet i can't even attend the graduation night.I've been scrutinised by the Government.Say,most of my friends from JJC will be going to the Police Force too.Will there be a reunion of JJC Malaygangstar?I hope so.Aidil,Zaid,Khamsya and Hanan will all be posted to Police.This is going to be FUN.Muahaha.Ok,that's that.Let's talk about today.I mugged at the Woodlands Regional Library today with Aizat and Maly.It was super condusive and i'll be going there again tomorrow.Haha.I'll not be sleeping tonight because there will be a Man Utd bout tomorrow morning and further more,i've got to catch up on my physics.Hmmm...i didn't smoke much today after prayers because i've promised Princess not to.Thank you Princess.Well,i did it not just for her but also for my own health.I need the stamina of a horse,power of a Rhino,strength of a bull and the aggression of a wild boar in order to survive in the top flight of rugby competition.I can't afford to smoke many sticks now a days.Again,i would like to thank Princess. :p hehehe.Well,i'm in hysteria and can't think right now and it'll be appropriate if i end my entry right here.To all my friends who will be serving the fucked up nation,all the best. Adios!! Semboyan telah berbunyi....menuju medan bakti....

Monday, October 18, 2004

Where To Go Or No Where To Go?

Sigh.Thinking of A Level makes me sick.In other countries,you'll have to study only up to certain years and education is not compulsory.Look at Singapore.I have to study for 12 years to get to the University.What the hell is this?Then,to worsen the matter,i have to serve 2 years in National Service.When am i going to start working?When am i going to earn my first pay check?When am i going to get married and have children?I understand that education is good for us but the least the Government can do is to lessen our burden.Is that damn difficult? My cohort,those geeks borned in 1986, seems to be like lab mice.Are we the Government's experiment?We are the first cohort to take the National Education and bla bla bla.Well FUCK it!Now,i'm confused as to where i should go after the A Level? If God and my result permit me to go to the NUS or NTU,i shall go but the problem is that i have a feeling that my result will not be that good.What should i do?Well,there's always NIE,SMU,SIM and bla bla bla.Can i make it?Well,i'll try my best.Actually i'm not worried at all.If i have worked hard and still can't make it to any of the universities mentioned above,maybe God have a better plan for me.Maybe he wants me to go to polytechnic to pursue business and be a successful businessman.Only God knows!Hmm,let's not talk about academic stuff.Today wasn't a good day to do my revision.I think i'm burnt out.I can't study at all today.Totally lost.Besides that,the Year 1s were making fucking lots of noise and they really exasperated me.FUCK them!Hmm...I'm thinking of going to NIE to be a teacher.Maybe a Physical Education instructor or a Malay teacher.After getting enough money,i would want to go to New Zealand to further my study and maybe specialise in business in one of the university there.Maybe i want to go to Waikato University.At the same time,i would want to join the local rugby club there.I really want to play in the DHL Rugby Super 12.That's my ambition.Well, can that be achived?It's really up to me.I've always believe that when there's a will,there's always a way.I shall pray hard then.Before i end,i have an encouraging stuff for my friends who are taking A level this year:

///™ 'A'Level™ cambridge
A Level is just a big exam thrown around by small Brits who find it
entertaining to torture students than to help them pass.
A Level is not difficult. It's easy.
A Level is not an examination. It's a dare.
A Level can be easily passed.
A Level is temporary.
A Level is NOTHING.

Sunday, October 17, 2004

Ahmad Fathi - I Will Survive Without You

I Will Survive Without You

As love engulfed me like a sandstorm
It filled within me with love and warmth
I was put on an island of fame
Where no real desire shall shame.

Amidst all sand dunes was passion
Mirage of love was no illusion
It could be felt miles away
Every night and every day.

Then emerged a maiden from oasis
Full of romance that I couldn’t resist
She eviscerated my only heart
Leaving behind what was blood

I was a body without a soul
Where for me no truth will unfold
I was once a famous love king of the wild
Now I am simply an erstwhile.

I’m stranded now in the garden of confusion
Where fraud love blurred my entire vision
Fatal vines strapped me without remorse
For starting the love, I’m now at a loss.

Thank you dear for ‘loving’ me
I’m me what I wanted to be
Now that my love will revive
Even without you I will survive.



What's Wrong With This Beloved Earth?

Haha.Today was a bit funny.We studied at school as normal.During one of our break,we played rummy and was scolded by the security guard.There wasn't any teacher but he still scolded us.FUCK him!Sri Nivas was on the edge of his seat.He was about to explode and i could see it in his face.He was actually scolded by the mother fucking security guard.Of course it's illegal to play gambling card game in public but for God sake,it's Sunday.Sri argued with the mother fucker and i swore the fucker wanted to punch Sri's face.I wanted to tell the fucker that it's illegal to smoke in the school premises too.He is such a turd. Well,besides that,we actually have fun in the school.Haha.That's that.Hmm..i'm mad at the government for raising the price of cigarette.FUCK the system.They told us the reason for the price hike was to encourage us to smoke no more.Well,they are actually lying.70% of the text revenue comes from excise duty and cigarette tax.I'm damn sure they wouldn't want to loose huge amount of tax revenue.Haha.Another thing that is bedevelling my mind is this world.What's happening to this world man?Brother fucking sister,terrorism,people killing people,bombings,acceptance of nudity as a form of raw art and bla bla bla.This is all bull shit.Just look at the Malay community in Singapore.All the Mats and Minahs are enjoying themselves when we the Malays at College are working like fuck to support the county in the future.Most of the Malays don't see the importance of education.Education helps to build character and ensures our future.Look at the mainstream Malays,most are scums.What do they do?Slack and tarnish the Malay image.Just travel down to Peninsula Plaza and Orchard Rd and you'll can see what i mean.Most Skinheads and Punks are Malays.Can they give me one good reason why on Earth would they want to rebel in this blissful country?Well,FUCK them!!I dare them to start a riot.Haha.They can't even host the riot even for a minute because the 'Red Van' comes pretty fast.Hmm....let's talk about love.I'm not Dr Love but i shall give my opinion anyway.Hollywood have never make a movie about a guy who likes several girls but he don't stand a chance in getting anyone of them(am i talking about myself?).Muahaha.I guess i'm unlucky.Let's count the number of girls i've liked so far.Hmm...about...i dunno lah.There's Norshahidah,Thong Pei Qin,Lay Kwan and bla bla bla.What the fuck.Nobody cares any way.Haha.Wait,i've just said earlier on that my pink ranger will be waiting for me.Well,let's just wait and see.Haha.Love sucks or is it me that sucks?Sadiq is true about me.I always react differently infront of girls.Then,i tend to crack stupid jokes infront of them.I guess girls don't like that.Now, my wish is to change my image.Sigh!!Anyway,i went to see Hamid's blog just now.He reminded me about the Graduation Night.Hmm...that night will be special i guess.Just imagine 700 geeks in the field.The idea of hosting Grad night there really sucks.I was expecting some grand place but what the fuck.NVM.Hmm...if only i can go berserk on that day.Imagine me crashing 699 freaks(excluding my rugby mates) in the field.The first person i would want to crash is Mr Koh and my econs teacher.I'll go POW!,BOOM! and POOO! They'll be like falling on the field like rotten Apples.Muahahah.So imaginative!! Well,i gotta go now because i bet my entry this time around is pretty long.Adios!!

Saturday, October 16, 2004

Fucked Up Man Utd

Well.I'm pretty angry with Man Utd tonight.They played like a bunch of geeks.Well,Ronaldo didn't perform tonight and it's not his fault because the Birmingham defence was superb.Hmmm...Alex Ferguson,if you're listening,you should sell the fucking Gary Neville.He's a stupid fucker who can't play at all.You're just blinded by his commitment and work rate but he's still lousy.I really don't understand how on Earth he could play for England.Read my lips...FUCK U Neville.My wish is to see Gary Neville fucking leave Old Trafford at the end of the season.That's that! Hmm...today was a bit special because i broke fast at my cousin's house.Well,it was kind of boring.All we did was to eat and after that we warmed up our ass on the floor watching soccer.Darn boring.Luckily my newphews and my cousins' sons and daughters were there to entertain us.Haha.Shakil was extremely violent.Haha.I was kicked in the face by him when i went near to picked him up.He's so cute yet violent.I bet he'll grow up to be a hunk.Well,i did maths for the whole day and i covered Discreet Random Variable and it was such a boring topic but what can i do? Well,i just found out yesterday that Syazwani has a boyfriend.People asked me whether i was jealous or angry.Well,why should i be jealous?She was just my crush and nothing more.There are many fishes in the sea.Hehe.Anyway,i bet my pink ranger is waiting for me out there.It's morphing time.Muahaha.LAME!!Anyway,i got to end this entry here because tommorrow awaits me.I've got to study tommorrow so i need all the sleep i can muster.May God bless me!! Adios.

Friday, October 15, 2004

Aftermath

Muahaha.Today is the first day of Ramadhan and i didn't even shed a sweat.Haha.I didn't feel hungry at all.Well,i went to prayer with Harun and Sadiq.After the prayer,we went to the nearby coffee shop to talk shit.We talked about everything and we were making a lot of noise too.Haha.Sadiq's funny especially the 'execuse me' part.Hahaha.Well,i was pissed with Aidil today.He poked my stomach with a mechanical pencil and who wouldn't be pissed off?It was painful.Well,that's that and i'm not the type of person who loves to keep grudge.I'm forgiving.Hmm...i observed that a couple of my friends have already given up on their A level.Well,that struck me and i seldom question myself. Why do i have to study when in the end,it doesn't even matter because we'll be dead eventually.Hmm...but i've always rebutt my notion with a thinking that i, as a muslim and a samaritan of my country,should serve the country and my religion at the end of my education.Education,thus,is the only answer to this.Hmm...God is right.Education is just not about making money.Education is also not just about learning but about unlearning too.Education and knowledge are life long learning.Without education,we're nothing but i really hate Singapore's rigid education system.Yeah,the shitty politicians may say that they have renewed our education system and we have always claimed that Singapore's education system is the best.Well,fuck it.Our education system disregard late bloomers.In this rat race,only the fastest will survive and they will survive well.It's true that they can say that even ITE students can survive but define 'survive'.Hmm...is surviving about living your life in a stressed up place?Is survival suppose to be painful?Hmmm...i don't wanna talk much about the education system here because i could be sued.Singapore is a paradox.The only liberty here is 'controlled liberty'. Adios! No offence to the Govt.

Thursday, October 14, 2004

A Day Before Ramadhan

Today was the last day my friends and i were able to enjoy the food from our school canteen. Yeps,tomorrow is Ramadhan and all muslims have to fast.I wonder what Ramadhan will be like amidst A Level preparation? Hmmm...i guess this is a challenge for me.Well,today was a pretty boring day.Nothing much happened.I studied econs for the whole day and i covered Monopoly.Gosh,it was difficult.Then,to relieve stress,Aidil and me spin around with the rugby ball.Jolene asked me to teach her how to kick a rugby ball but i'm not a good kicker.Thus,i left the job to Aidil.Muahaha.Mei Shan joined in and she did a couple of kicks and i swear she is a good kicker.I think she has talent in kicking but i certainly hope she put it to good use.Please don't kiss asses!!Muahahha.Other than that,Sri talked about General Knowledge that he knows and he is one of the person that i know so far who has a vast general knowledge other than my old buddy Aizat.We talked about KGB,FBI,the fucking Jews(no offence) and bla bla bla.Hmmm...i've been puffing a lot today because i can't smoke tomorrow before break fast.Cigarette of choice? Clove cigarette from Surya Gudang Garam.Kind of heavy but i like it as it has a sweet after taste.Well, before i write this blog entry, i met upon this e-mail that talks about the sun rising from the west or somthing along that line.Hmmm...it was pretty interesting as it talks about the teaching of Prophet Muhammad S.A.W and some revelation.I guess the world is coming to an end.We humans really have to wake up!! It's time for us to live in peace and not animosity. Yeps,i guess i've got to go now but before i do,i want to wish all muslims a happy Ramadhan and best wishes for Peace Activists.

Please Return To Me

Ahmad Fathi - Please Return To Me

I’ve told you many times dear
That there’s nothing that I fear
Except to loose you from my arms
And forever miss your charms

I don’t want to close my eyes
Deep down my heart cries
To see our endless love
Lands in a guilty turf

I shall stand in the rain
And suffer the pain
So you’ll not spot
That I’m crying a lot

I shall sing to hide my sorrow
Hoping you’ll return tomorrow
I’ll only stop loving thee
If you can find my tears in the sea

If you would only give me a chance
To rekindle our true romance
Please reach my hand and return
Our love please don’t you burn

No one can replace you
Loving you is all I can do
The reason I’m here is you
To revive our love that’s true

P.S Dedicated to those who have failed in love.
Don't be dishearten coz' love will always be
in the air



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Genesis: A New Beginning

Hmmm...today is my first time writing for my blog. Well, it's actually morning already and i should be sleeping but here i am wasting time with my blog.Well, i think blog is a good investment for me because i love to express my ideas and feelings.Guess what? I'm left with 21 days to A Level.I'm all nervous.What do i do next if i can't secure myself in a local University?What do i do if my result is turd?Gosh,i'll promise myself to work extra hard and turn on the back burner just for A Level.Anyway,Ramadhan is coming.I'm so excited about it.Yesterday at school,i became a fortune teller and i predict Jolene's love life.Muahaha.She was so noisy!Haha.Then,i managed to cover a bit on Monopolistic Competition and i swear yesterday's mugging session at school was fruitful.Well, to all readers out there,i'll pen down some poems for all of you to see but they will not come any soon.Just wait!Hmm...i gotta because i'm busy downloading this wonderful movie called American History X.Well,to all my friends,good luck for A levels and may good bless you all with blissful life. Adios!