Justice Is Served

At last that mofo, Joakim Gomez, is out of Singapore Idol. He should have gotten his ass kicked out of the competition long ago. See what he had done! Because of him, 2 good singers, both Rahimah and Mathilda, got kicked out. Singaporeans really do not how to appreciate good singers. Joakim's fans are a bunch of monkeys. Phenotype won't last long just like a peeled apple but voice is like wine. They older you get, the more silky your voice will get. Like i've said, most Singaporeans are no-brainers. The no-brainers from the younger generation is catching up with the no-brainers from the older generation. Fucked up! I really don't care about the Singapore Idol anymore. It defeats the purpose of singing. Why sing your lungs out when one way or the other, you'll get voted out? Ofcourse, people might argue that this is an idol competition in the first place. The more fans you have, the better chance you have at winning the title. However, no-brainers failed to realise this is afterall a singing competition. If you don't judge the competitors by their singing abilities, then why do they sing in the first place? Might as well they do some sketch or just stand on the stage smiling whilst you no-brainers go goo-goo-ga-ga. Oh come on! That is why i would rather listen to my iPod. Music heals the soul. Anyway, Singapore is not a good place to start a singing career. If Singaporeans are smart, they should join idol competition at other countries. Look at Malaysia and Indonesia. Wider and bigger market means fatter wallet in the future, if you win at all lah. Think about it! Singing is not a joke. Sigh. I just want to share my song pick of this moment. Enjoy!

Trisha Yearwood - How Do I Live
How do I
Get through one night without you?
If I had to live without you
What kind of life would that be?
Oh I, I need you in my arms
Need you to hold
You're my world, my heart, my soul
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything good in my life.
Without you
There'd be no sun in my sky
There would be no love in my life
There would be no world left for me
And I
Baby I don't know what I would do
I'd be lost if I lost youIf you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything real in my life
And tell me now
How do I live without you?
I want to know
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I
How do I
Oh how do I live?
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything
Need you with me
Baby don't you know your everything good in my life
And tell me now
How do I live without you?
I want to know
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I
How do I
Oh how do I live?
How do I live without you?
How do I live without you baby?
How do I live?...

Blood Is Sweet. Pain Is Temporary. Glory Is Forever.

Your body is like a temple. But mine is not! It is more like an old punching bag. Battered and in a bad condition. However, i'm still alive and kicking. Miracle? Nope. I still have some gas left in me before i call for a stop for competitive sports. Like i've said, i am taking a break this year from competitive sports and this includes rugby. I've taken many knocks and my body have taken it's toll. To be frank, my body is not that tough. I was borned with German Measels (measels or measles? Whatever!) That made me a handicap. That is a long story. Below are the summary of my past injuries.

Ankle Sprain (Rating: 5/10)
I hate this injury very much. Basically, you can't move much. Immobilised. The worst ankle sprain was during my short stint with US Navy Soccer Club. I played for them for 3 months and during one of the free kick trainings, i got a heavy fall on my ankle and i sprained it pretty bad. I lined up for a shot at goal and all i thought was to curl the ball like Beckham, haha, and my eyes were engrossed on the travelling ball. The trajectory and speed of the ball wasn't that bad but i forgot one thing; what goes up must come down. No, not the ball but I forgot about my right leg. After kicking the ball, i landed on my right ankle and it instantly swelled up pretty badly. I could hear some crunching sound upon impact with the ground. I was out of action for 2 months.

Shin Spleen/ Split Shin (Rating: 3/10)
This injury is not that bad but it is damn irritating. It usually happens when you have not conditioned your body, especially your legs, before you put yourself on a tough physical exercise regime or you do not rest your legs long enough. I got this injury during my stay in TRACOM and HTA. You can still run but it will be uncomfortable.

Right Knee (Open Patella) (Rating: 5/10)
This is yet another painful injury. My first injury of this sort was when i was training for selection for JJC Soccer Team. As you train often, your knee ligament will dry up and if you do not let it recuperate, it will be a permanent damage. Now my knee seems fine because it has been a while since i got myself involved in any callistechnic. Haha. This is a popular injury amongst soccer players and till now at times, i would wear an open patella knee guard.

Right Shoulder Ligament (Rating: 8/10)
Oh boy! Fucking painful. I couldn't even move my right hand at all. I got this injury during a rugby friendly match for my college against Jurong Institute. The referee called for a penalty against us and my scrumhalf did a quick tap and i asked for the ball without realising that there weren't any support. I picked the ball and tried to bulldoze my way trough the fortress of JI players. One Indian chap gave an illegal high tackle and he brought me down. I landed on my right shoulder first and i swear, the moment i landed on the ground, i shouted like pussy. It was damn painful. Actual recuperation period is between 2 and 3 months but i started training after 1 month. There is no scar for this injury but there is a lump on my right shoulder. It still hurts and i can crackle my right shoulder now and it will produce a disgusting crackling sound. Ouch!

Left Shoulder Ligament (Rating: 7/10)
This is the same type of injury as the above-mentioned injury. I got this during a rugby match between JJC and RJC. I managed to side tackle this RJC guy and like before, i landed akwardly.

Minor Lis-franc Dislocation (Rating 9/10)
This injury is the dislocation of my 1st and 2nd metartarsal of my right leg. The pain rating says it all. Damn and fucking painful. I couldn't even get out of the bed without my dad's help. I do not know how i manage to get home in the first place right after the injury. I kept walking and walking until i was finally home. I got it during one of Team JJC Soccer's friendly match. It was against Tanglin secondary school. I saw this lose ball and decided to clear it when my own team mate, Lyn Tween, a Burmese guy, did a two footed challenge. It wasn't his fault as he didn't see my coming. Till now, i have difficulty walking.

Degeneration of the lower spinal cord (Rating: 9/10)
This is a long term injury and it can not be cured without operation. My father got the same injury as I. Basically, i can't be bothered to go to any specialised doctors because i already knew what i am suffering from. My father got the same syptom of this injury. At first everything will be alright as the pain resembles that of normal back ache. Then the situation will worsen and from small pain, you will get prolong pang. The feeling is like somebody is splitting your spine into two.I got this injury when i wrestled my friend in those days in secondary school. Your whole day will be ruined because of this injury. You can't sit properly for a long period of time. You can't walk properly. You can't sleep peacefully. Basically, your life will change. Mine had! What i heard from my friend is that if this injury goes untreated, i can be bedridden for life. Something to ponder...

Laceration of upper lip (Rating: 3/10)
Not that painfull at all. When i first caught a glimpse of myself right after the incident, i thought i am going to look uglier. Haha. My upper lip almost splitted into two. Blood was oozing at first but stopped after a while. I needed 9 stitches in total.

Sprain of my right toe (Rating: 6/10)
Quite painful and at the same time irritating. This is the case when i miskicked a ball.

Swelling of the right heel (Rating: 6.5/10)
I can't move properly with this injury. I got this two months ago. I wanted to block a shot by bringing up my right leg and i forgot to bring it down gently. I accidentally stomp my right foot on the ground.

Internal bleeding of the brain (Rating: 8.5/10)
There was a blood clot in my brain and i have to be brought to a Neuro specialist in TTSH. I lost all my short term memory and right after the injury, i felt like vomitting. I got this injury in secondary school when my friend did a Russian Leg Sweep on me during our wrestling activity. Haha. I told my parents that i fell down the stairs. The CAT scan cost my dad 350 bucks!

Dead legs (Rating: 7.5/10)
Damn irritating as you can't move much with this injury. This is my favourite injury as i got many MCs during TRACOM time. The doctor can't basically check whether that muscle group of your injured leg is really swollen because it is difficult to do so. The doctors will usually give you MCs. Haha.I usually got this injury after rugby trainings.

Hamstring (Rating: 7.5/10)
A very famous amongst sportmen especially sprinters and soccer players. The worst i got was during my college days. After i disrupted my NS, i resumed my rugby training for my college while i was having a swollen buttocks. Thus, i couldn't run properly and have to use much of my hamstring so much so that it almost got torn. I missed most of the rugby matches because of this injury.

Broken Heart (Rating: only God knows)
If you can avoid this injury, i encourage you to because all injuries have their cures except this injury. This injury might be a result of loneliness or simply because someone hurt your feelings. Damn painful. This injury is worse than death. This is my worst injury. Sigh!

Possible injuries/ diseases

• heart disease
• lung cancer
• diabetes
• throat cancer
• parkinson disease
• high blood pressure
• alzeihmer
• more serious broken heart

The lesson to be learned from my experience is that you really have to take care of your body. Your body is sacred. You need to use your body till you are old. Don't smoke because it is really bad for your health. It is of no use to suffer later when you are old. The damage is irreversible. All those advices above are from my AD. Haha. Obviously not from me. I live with this principle, 'Pain is temporary. Glory is forever.' Long live King Crippler!

Mee Siam Mai Ham

Mr Brown oh Mr Brown. Haha. He's a damn funny guy. Mr Miyagi is funny too. Just recently, a friend of mine sent me the latest Mr Brown's show and it was about National Day Rally Speech 2006. Muahaha. A parody of Lee Hsien Loong speech and Black Eyed Peas' My Hump. Haha. The lyric goes something like this: 'They talk about ba chong. So i tell them mee siam mai ham..mai ham...mai ham...mai ham (according to the tune and melody of My Hump by BEP). Damn funny! Sadly, Mr Brown and Talking Cock Co. were heavily ticked off by LHL during the rally speech. Oh come on! Where is freedom of speech? It is not like they (Mr Brown and Talking Cock Co.) have defamed the government. All they do is that they relay some of the important messages, facts and news through parodies. Sometimes they make fun of politicians and others in their talk shows but have they ever defamed them? Did Mr Brown accuse LHL of some thing that he didn't do? Oh please! Politicians can't really take jokes. This is creativity. The government always talk about creativity but when someone like Mr Brown does his talk show, they (the government) are now reprimanding him. Hmm, i watched the national day rally speech the other day and all the topics that were discussed were close to our hearts. Even though i detest PAP, i found the points and topics brought up by LHL to be worth while listening to. The one topic that captured my attention was Heartware. Am i a true Singaporean? By birth only? I really like Singapore but i do not favour the life style in Singapore. Too hectic and stressful. So am i really a Singaporean? Be rest assured that if Singapore were to be attacked by another country, I'll do my utmost to defend her. But i would love to live some where else. I know myself well. I can't take that much of a pressure. Why take the pressure when you can avoid it? Right? Most probably i would love to live in New Zealand, Indonesia or Malaysia. Talking about Indonesia. Yesh, it reminds me of Iluh. Haha. I called her once i returned to Singapore and we talked for a while. She still remembers me! Haha. Now i realise something. You really can't love someone you do not know. Well, it is hard to trust someone but it is also morally wrong to judge them by their looks and what they do. Only God can judge his creation. I think we shall just be friends. I messaged her couple of times and she replied. I guess that is how it should be. Just friends. I shall visit Bali in January. Gosh, life is some times unfair. You often hear this phrase, especially in many Economic textbook, 'The rich is getting richer and the poor is getting poorer.' But have you heard this phrase before, 'The rich is getting more stupid and the poor is getting more clever'? I personally believe so because just look at how the rich spend their money. Some splurge on things that are white elephants. Look at the Prince of Brunei. He has a castle with many rooms but does he really need all that rooms? Maybe to store his money? Haha. Or store his 'dirty laundry'? Haha. Do you actually need clothes that cost many times it's actual cost price? Not at all. Why buy clothes in the first place when people are beginning to live in a medieval or jurassic period? People are nowadays semi-nude. To make things more complex, the not-enough-cloth clothes are also that damn expensive. With that money, you can help feed the poor. When you wear Prada, Palestinians are wearing Prata. When you wear Gucci, orphans of India are wearing Gunny (gunny sacks). Ponder this! I'm not saying that i have never splurge on expensive stuff. I've bought jersies that are expensive before but the difference is that i do not buy them often. Yeap, when you look at human's uncanny and ill behaviour, you can sense that the world is coming to an end. But people are making the situation more difficult. Sigh. In office, there are some many hypocrites. Just last Friday, i attended the Exercise Pandora and this White Crow irritated me. First, he called me gemuk (fat). He's fat too. Fuck him lah. Secondly, he told me to do stupid stuff likes climbing trees to pluck rambutans and run to the TAV to call it to come to Director. Gorblok have the Sgt's handphone number. He can always call the TAV to come to the meeting point instead of me going there to call it. Siao! When i told No to his dumb order, he told me that i have to learn to say Yes because there are things that could be learned during the process. I was already damn mad at him. Feel like choke-slamming him to hell! For God sake, no body calls me fat. I can run faster than most slim guys and oh please White Crow, i look better than you! Haha. See what i mean? The world is littered with stupid and ill-mannered people and also hypocrites. I hope the government can organise a Kill Hypocrites Day. Till then...

Nostalgic Songs

I'm like crazy over old malay songs. I've downloaded some of P Ramlee's songs. They are quite nice. Not that bad. I'm listening to some of the songs that i used to listen whilst growing up. Nico, KRU, Sheila Majid, Feminin, 4U2C and etc. Gosh, i could still my childhood epoch. Full of adventures, scoldings and accidents. Haha. I would love to share the lyrics of those songs with you guys. Enjoy!

Nico - Engkau Dan Aku

(Engkau perlukan aku) X4
Engkau dan aku
Kali pertama
Menjeling mata
Hatiku pun tergoda
Aku tertawan
Dengan sikapmu
Kini ku pun tahu
Kau sayang kepadaku
Cinta yang suci
Kekal abadi
Cinta yang tulus
Cinta yang kekal ini
Mengapa kita harus berpura
Seolah tiada cinta antara kita

Engkau perlukan aku
Aku cinta padamu
Kerana ku tahu
Kau sayang kepadamu
Ku tak relak menunggu
Hanya engkau untuk ku
Usah lagi engkau cuba
Menjauhkan dirimu

Engkau perlukan aku
Kenangan lalu
Terus memburu
Aku terpaku dengan kejujuranmu
Kerana penghalang
Kau melafazkan
Kata perpisahkan
Engkau berikan
Mengapa kini
Harus terjadi
Kata manis mu
Cinta kita yang suci
Bagaikan mimpi
Mimpi yang negeri
Harap kau mengerti
Tentang diriku ini

Engkau perlukan aku
Aku cinta padamu
Kerana ku tahu kau sayang padaku
Ku tak rela menunggu
Hanya enkgau untuk ku
Usah lagi engkau cuba
Menjaukan diri mu
Engkau perlukan aku
Aku cinta pada ku
Kerana ku tahu kau sayang pada ku

Ku tak reala menugnggu
Hanya engkau untuk ku
Usah lagi kau cuba menjauhkan dirimu

4U2C - Kenangan Cinta

Kenangan saat berputiknya cinta bersama
Ingat semua... padaku berdua
Mengapa... kesudahan begini yang kau pinta
Mengakhirkan cinta kita
Siapa... Sebenarnya...Yang menjadi punca perpisahan kita
Cinta dan perasaanku hancur kini
Kau pergi... (kau pergi)

( korus )
Andainya engkau tahu
Perasaan ini
Ku kan pasti kau mengerti
Menangis sendiri
Pintaku hanya satu
Sebelum berlalu
Jika engkau disakiti
Pulanglah...
Kan ku nanti kau kembali oh sayang

Cowards Die Many Times Before Their Deaths

Yahoo. At last i have got a partner at work. Almost half the 'pain' has been alleviated. My new buddy will be doing Shafiq's work. DSP CBH called Si Wei and me into his office and we discussed about our job scopes. The moment DSP CBH told me that Si Wei will be doing Shafiq's work, i could not help but grin from ear to ear. Hehe. Looking at Shafiq's job scope, i think it will be a suicide doing it alone. I will try to help Si Wei in organising In-service for our department. Anyway, let me digress about the topic on Ugly Singaporeans. Every morning, i will have the tendency to answer Nature's call at a toilet of a coffee shop nearest to my home. I swear every time i am there to 'invest', there will be this stupid Ah Pek who would be in the toilet. God knows what he often does inside. I have no problem with people using the toilet for a long period of time but at least have the courteousy to flush it after use. If i ever chance upon that old man after he used the toilet without flushing it, i swear i will let out a swing and punch his teeth down his throat. What an ugly Singaporean! Anyway, i do not see a point of having a blog just to be in the lime light. A blog is some place where you should vent your anger at or write what your heart feels. It should not be about a scripture for others to praise you or worst still, for members of the opposite sex to praise you 24/7. If the blog is good, then it is good. Do not worry too much. Might as well put the blog address on the newspaper for publicity sake. I am not saying that my blog is good or i am damn correct but what i want to assert is the creativity aspect and the writing culture that a blog can offer. It (the blog) does not have to be about placating others because that defeats the purpose of blogging. Blogging is raw, creative, inspiring and many more. Not about placating and appeasing others. It is all about yourself. I can not be bothered if people love or detest my blog because none of them defines what i am. Earlier, a jerk put some stupid things, and i believe it was not supposed to be a jest, and obviously he had a scam. He wanted to irritate me. Then came a she-male who insulted me on my blog. I can take critics but one thing that antagonises me is insults. If that person is good, take me on in a ring then and i will show him or her what life is all about. Fuckers! Cowards!

"Cowards die many times before their deaths; The valiant never taste of death but once.Of all the wonders that I yet have heard, it seems to me most strange that men should fear;Seeing that death, a necessary end, will come when it will come". Julius Caesar Quote (Act II, Scene II).

I have always adhere to the above-mentioned famous quote in the play, Julius Caesar, by William Shakespeare. I don't understand some people! Sigh! Singaporeans are unique and boy they are! Bleargh!

Lucky?

Lucky things seemed to happen to me this week. First, i was involved in IMF and have to report to work on Friday at 7am. I asked my dad to send me to NPPK and i was in the office 2 minutes before 7am. I realised i couldn't walk comfortably because of a corn on my right foot. It was damn irritating. I decided to tell Rizal about my condition and he told me to report sick. I was damn glad when i was given the green light to skip Exercise Pandora 4. I swear such exercises are a pristine waste of time. I bet the SPF can't handle real riot. Give me a break! So far, the riots thrown unto them are controlled by some caucasians and the riots are not as violent as the riots that happened overseas. Bull shit! Anyway, after reporting sick, i went to Teka Market to have my breakfast. Thosai. Haha.I ordered one plain thosai and one thosai with egg. Do you know what i received? A plain thosai and one Masala Thosai. I just ate the both of them anyway since i was really hungry. Guess what i found in the masala thosai? Nope. Not love but a 10 cent coin. Haha. How lucky could i be? After breakfast, i went home straight. Sian. The new guy, my partner for my team, just came this Friday and Hadi told me that he looks like an Ah Beng. Haha. I have yet to meet him and i hope, i really hope, we can work together well. I just want an easy life there in SIRD. 1 year and 17 days to ORD. Quite a long way but i will live life a day at a time. I'll try to learn useful skills whilst in SIRD. We had soccer match yesterday and we lost to Team Coke from NTU. They played well but we were equal to them. The score for first half was 2 all. Then we lost. Sigh. However, i realise that we are beginning to play better. Not bad! I played as defensive midfielder and i was out of position most of the time. I may lack in speed and positioning skill but i counter that weaknesses with my aggression. Thank you Rugby. Gosh. I miss Rugby! There's a saying. It goes something like this; 'If i have a chance to have a wife in heaven or play rugby in hell, i'd sell my wife to the devil and crash in hell!' Hell yeah! Haha. Gosh, i'm already missing Bali. I don't know whether to return to Bali this December or not because i'm short of cash this few months. Life in Bali is so relaxing and laid back. Just my type. Then there are the sun, sand and sea. My playground!Gosh. I just don't like living in Singapore. Full of shitty people. Most are ruffians with no honour and etiquette. I have come to a point of realisation. I've realised my liking for the Balinese girl is pure lust. Haha. But i think it is fine to befriend her. I don't even know her. There's a malay saying, 'Tak kenal maka tak cinta.' Translation: 'If you do not know some thing or some one, ofcourse you can't like it or that person.' Haha. I'm just crazy lah! Haha. But one thing is for sure. I'm returning to Bali. Ini bukan basa-basi (in Bahasa Indonesia). It means this is not fake. I think there are many nice girls in Singapore. There isn't a need to look thousands of miles away for a girl. There's one here. A Sino one. Hehe. Gosh, so mushy. Aight, logging out! Here are some of the photos i took whilst in Bali.


  

  

  

  




  

Testing 1-2-3

Testing 1 2 3. I have signed up for Photobucket and the picture above is kind of a test. That was drawn by me in college when i was bored in Economic lecture. Nina and Huishan called me a Carebear. Thus, i decided to draw a Carebear except that it is an evil version. Hehe.

Life Is A Journey. Enjoy The Ride.

What a terrible week it is for me. Many bad and unlucky things happened. Firstly, one of my colleague attempted suicide on the national day. It was a sad week for my department. On Thursday, no body wanted to say anything and the office was damn quiet. I went to visit my colleague 2 days ago at Tan Tock Seng Hospital and she was really in a bad condition. I will pray for her best. God knows what is best. I failed my Final Theory Test (FTT) and it was as expected. Haha. Friday was the test and i started to study the book of previous questions on Thursday night. Haha. Never mind! I will do better next time. On Friday itself, i accompanied Sadiq to Queensway. He wanted to buy a pair of soccer boots and i wanted to buy some boot studs and a rugby apparel. We went there and spent almost 2 hours searching for boots. After Sadiq bought his boots, it was my turn to do some small scale shopping. We went to the 2nd level to look for the Mizuno shop and we went round and round but could not find the shop. I asked one of the shop keeper and he told me the shop is just next door. I was damn happy but that happiness lived shortly. The shop was closed. Fuck! Then, we went down to the 1st storey to look for my boot studs and almost all the shops that i went to, the guy at the counter would say that the have run out of boot studs that i wanted. What the fuck! I went out of that shopping mall empty handed. The next day, which was yesterday, was another unlucky day for me. I wanted to buy a concession for my eZ-link card and had to make my way to Choa Chu Kang MRT interchange. However, the counter was closed and it would only open at 12 noon. What the fuck! I then decided to head to Orchard to get myself a pack of studs for my F50 boots. When i reached Cathay, the one beside Plaza Singapura, i was flabbergasted to find out that the shop would only be opened at 12 noon too. What the fuck! I made my way to the nearest coffee shop, the one at Short Street at Zion Place, to have a cup of tea and few fags. I sat there for about half and hour doing nothing. Finally i went back to the adidas boutique to purchase the studs. After that, i headed to Boon Lay to meet my friends for a soccer match. Little did i know that i was there early. We were supposed to meet at 3.15pm and i was there at 1.55pm. What the fuck! I went to the nearest convenient store and grabbed an energy drink and Newsweek magazine to occupy my time. Newsweek is not bad. I usually read Time magazine. Finally my friends showed up at 3.15pm and some were late. As usual, Malay Promise. Haha. The match was played at Jurong West Secondary School and some surprise players turned up. Khai and Wan were there. We won convincingly and the score was 5-3. I played as centre back with Zaid and it was damn tiring. It was my worst match especially in the second half where i got to play as right back. I was out-paced by the opponent's winger. It is not that i am not pacey but it is just that i did not have any gas left in the second half. Sian! Sunday seems to be a boring day of the week. Harun and I went to Peninsula Plaza to shop and guess what i bought? Yahoooooooooooo! I forked out $95 for the newest Manchester United jersey. This is the type of jersey that Man U will be wearing for the upcoming season. The jersey was damn cheap. I bought it without delay. I am a hard core Man U fan and what is a Man U fan without a Man U jersey? The jersey made up for the sadness for this week. At least there is something to be happy about. Life is a bitch filled with many obstacles. Life is funny too. Life is after all a journey. Sit back and enjoy the ride!