Never Surrender Into The Night,Never Banish Without A Fight

Wow...what a splendid weekend it was last week! I went for my secondary school's chalet..it was damn fun but the venue was kind of far..it was at Costa Sands Resort beside Downtown East..it was supposed to start at 4pm but i came late..reached there at around 8pm..during my journey to Pasir Ris, i had this pang in my spine because i have to stand all the way from Choa Chu Kang to Pasir Ris..those fuckers don't want to spare a seat for this poor boy, yours truly..haha..before that, i was at JJC playing soccer with my JJC Malaygangstars..it was damn tiring and not having to seat during the long journey made the situation worse..it seemed like i was about to collapse during the journey..haha..the gathering was fun..we had barbequed food and it wasn't that superb but who cares about the food anyway? We watched TV together, take pictures, eat, smoke and laugh all night..but the most interesting and memorable event was the chatting session..not everybody that was invited was there but like i said, it was still fun..my best buddies came down..Shafiq and Aizat..it has been a while since i last saw them..miss them so much..Shafiq, Aizat and me talked through the night..Aizat went home at 3am the next morning and Shafiq went back at arnd 5am..i stayed there..realise that i didn't use the word 'sleep' or 'overnight'? That's because i didn't sleep at all..i was really dragging my feet the next day..insomnia i guess..i couldn't walk properly like as if i was high on booze..at around 8am, i bid farewell to go to Madrasah..i was there to sleep..haha..but earlier, aizat sms-ed me about something sad..it's about this particular nice girl whom i used to call abt 5 yrs ago to get some phone numbers from her..i pestered her but she was still nice to me on the phone..i met her couple of times in Orchard Rd and also in the train..her name is Joan Chan Shu Fang..she's a high flyer both in academics and CCA but look at her now..damn sad..i can't believe it the moment Aizat broke this news to me..it seemed so surreal..shocking too..hmm..but i believe God loves her more..maybe God has a better plan in store for her..who knows? Things happen for a reason and we humans can't comprehend that reason because it is beyond our humans' ability..but i salute her for her bravery and attitude..she's so optimistic and she's a real fighter..i've never seen someone so strong mentally and physically..i'll pray for her safety and well-being..i'll learn this good attitude of hers..Never Surrender Into The Night, Never Banish Without A Fight..what a sad thing..i chatted with Karyn yesterday and she seems so nice..we chatted about houses to CCAs to sad stuff to exams and many more..she's damn sweet too..i dunno how i added her but i think i got her msn address from Gary..i think so..luckily she's damn friendly..she opened my eyes to the Chinese world, that of sino toughts and mentality, and since she lives in the East side, she's been telling me more about life in the East of Singapore..i'm so outdated..i think i'll get lost if i would to go to the East..haha..so 'pai say'..hmm, other than that, Gary was right..she's nice to talk to..well i hope we can keep in touch..hopefully we can meet in person..Nice People Are Hard To Find..hmm..nothing much happened today in the office...got lots of paper work...we went to invigilate AETOS and CISCO Law Test at old TRACOM..it was interesting..at last i was an invigilator..haha..i saw couple of Diploma holders in CISCO and AETOS..there's this girl by the name of Jessica who is a diploma holder..i thought she is a chinise girl because she totally looks like one..but she's a malay..why would a diploma holder like her would want to be a security guard? Now that's very peculiar..i think it is really hard to get jobs out there..even degree holders nowadays are finding it hard to get a decent job..i wonder what my life would be? would i be successful? God-willing! Would i earn big bucks? God-willing! I have to work hard from now on..i hope i can land myself in NUS..Whoever says life is a bed of roses? Now that's true! Hmm..i've met an actual love hater...this guy doesn't believe in love at all..he's my supervisor..ASP Selva..haha..he don't believe in love at all..that's why he's still single..hmm...is he out of love? That i don't know because if talking about looks, he has it..if you talk about money, he has it...he's smart as he has double degree in law in a university in london...i still think he doesn't believe in love..haha...funny chap...well, i need to go off now...so lethargic after a session at the gym just now..physical conditioning..i have to rest early because there's rugby training tomorrow..all the best guys and gals!!

Ahmad Fathi - Never Alone

If you stay awake at night
And you cant sleep
Look up at the ebony sky
And contemplate deep

If you think you are lonely
Take a look around
You are never alone
Because love is all around

It's not about being loved
But about loving
You show others warmth
Just by smiling

If you are feeling down
Don't crumble and shed tears
I'll always be by you
To take away your fears

Ahmad Fathi - November

Never look back in anger
About the break up in November
At least there's something to remember
That memory lives on forever.

I laid my love on a maiden
The sweetest of any moment
Every thing that was done together
Until that fateful November.

It's tough living without you
But life has to continue
A brand new page of life
A story without you.

I know you left with a reason
And I respect your every decision
Letting you go is a misery
But I thank you for the memory.

Security Industry Regulatory Department

Wow..i didn't know that my posting will be tough..basically it's paper work plus regulatory work..this means i'll not be in the office most of the time..my boss told me that my place here hasn't been confirmed yet because maybe i'll get posted elsewhere..my department needs a class 3 driver..maybe i'll be posted to other departments or divisions..i dunno lah..PNSD always cock up..screw them..anyway, if i were to stay, i'll be covering two NS guys' work..now that's tough..i'm in the learning stage..basically my department deals with Auxillary Police Forces like Cisco and AETOS etc and Security Guard Agencies. For APF, we regulate their IPPT, Drill test, Scenario Based Test and Law Test. For SGA, we clamp down on those unlicensed security guards or those who haven't undergo NSRS training..Well, that's all i can tell you guys about my work for any further details will land me in jail due to Official Secret Act..Hmm, basically i have to wake up early every morning to get to work..i will board bus no 75 and then alight at Bukit Timah to board bus no 985..kind of tideous though but the trip is pretty fast..usually my journey to work will take 35min..that's that..well, last wednesday, right after work, yong hui and me went to Dhoby Ghaut to trade in modem..singnet gave me a modem, Hurricane 9000c, which doesnt support USB and thus i can't use it..i went to their redemption counter to exchange for Hurricane 9000b. The trip there was painstaking..we got lost because the address that singnet gave me was wrong..fucker!..we finally found the redemption counter at 7.05pm but the guy told me that the counter closed at 7pm..at first they didn't want to entertain me but after twisting their wrist a bit, they submitted to me..i've told you guys and i will tell you guys again that i'm the best submission fighter..haha..luckily that singnet guy was nice..after that, yong hui and me went to PS to wait for Gori..he was damn late..we walked all the way to Orchard Point to have our dinner..after that, we went back..haha...just recently at work, to be exact last friday, my bosses talked about girlfriend..he asked another new NS guy whether he has a girlfriend and the reply was yes..he's already 4 yrs with his girlfriend...every body went 'whooooa'. After questioning that guy, one of my bosses went straight for me..i told him that i'm single and he asked me why..how am i supposed to answer that kind of question? Haha...i wanted to say that i'm fuggly but i bet they wouldn't understand it...sigh...what's the big fuss of not having a girlfriend? What the fuck!! Later, i learned that most of my bosses aren't married yet..what the hell...they still have the cheek to ask me about girlfriend when they aren't married...shame on you guys! Haha...stupid people!! Man, feeling damn tired now...till we meet again..

Disappointment

At last i've passed out of HTA..yahoo..but it was a sad week for me..firstly, nobody came to my POP..so sad..my dad and mom couldn't make it due to work and i was there alone...everybody else was with their loved ones..sucks!..then came bad stuff..i have to go back home alone after the POP..not only that..i accidentally put my POP certificate on wet seat and drenched it...sigh...i accidentally dropped it at one coffee shop and lucky for me a samaritan picked it up and return it to me..then when i reached home, no one was at home and to make matter worse, i forgot to bring my house key..i have to wait at the void deck and that Starhub cut my line and thus, i can't call my parents...i have to make a phone call at the nearby Community Centre..i found out that my parents were at IKEA doing their shopping for some stupid shoe racks..what the hell!..luckily they came ASAP and took me for a nice dinner...aiyah...that's life..who says life is a bed of roses? Anyway, my posting is damn bad..Security Industry Regulatory Department at Police Head Quarter..to make matter worse, SPF didn't give my corporal rank just because my pes status is C..well i'm damn fit and much fitter than most of the guys whose pes status are A and B...this is injustice..what the hell! Hmm..well, so far so good..i almost got kicked out of SIRD because i used to work for a security firm...whatever..wow..i'm so broke..i'm waiting for my next pay..this wednesday..i still can't go online at home due to my modem...it doesnt support USB connection as it only have LAN connection..i'll be replacing it next wednesday..anyway, yeap..can't write much now..i'll update this blog when i get my hands on the new modem..sayonara!!

POP

haha...at last i'll be passing out..the pass out parade is next week, to be exact, next thursday..i'm so glad..you guys will be calling me SC Corporal Ahmad Fathi aka King Crippler..haha..the POP rehearsals weren't that bad as compared to NCC marching sessions...sigh..those were the days..anyway..this week has been good so far..i almost got involved in a fight..there's this one night where FI Amin forced the whole Echo coy to fall in due to us being extra noisy that night..he made us to push-ups and during the commotion, a stupid was making awful lot of nonsensical noise..he was cursing and yelling at others and making stupid comments..the guy is from squad 4..i shouted at him to shut his trap and he shouted at me back saying that it is his problem..he told me that if i want tranquility, i should go to the library...so i shouted back saying, 'Your father's library.' That guy, i swear, was damn pissed with me but what the fuck..he cant even show respect for the instructor and now he's damn pissed with me for insulting his dad..haha..i bet he don't even care for his dad..kalau dah dasar mat rape, mat rape lah..he don't know who he is messing with..if u mess with the best, you'll die like the rest..i'm the best submission fighter damn it..stupid guy..fuck him lah..anyway, yeap, went out with zaid, sadiq and harun yesterday..we went to Beach Rd to look for Kilat for my POP boots...then we headed to Orchard Rd to sight see..i planned to renew my contract with singnet and so we went to Wheel Lock Place..but it was a disappointmet because the assistant told me that i'm still not out of contract yet..WTF!..she told me to call Singnet about this..big deal! i was damn pissed..came all the way to orchard just to be disappointed..then i pass by the shop i bought a care bear for Shorty..just as we turned to the left after passing by the shop, guess who i saw? Shorty!! She was with Masadah..gosh..what a coincidence..it has been a while since i last saw her..she was shopping..couldn't talk much with her because i was in a ruch and furthermore, she's enjoying herself..don't want to disturb her..haha..she look cute with braces on her teeth..welcome to the Braces Club...i'm one of the club's member..lol...those were the days..hmm..i'm craving for some soccer actions..played soccer last week at Gan Eng Seng..11-a-side soccer..i still have not lose my touch..haha..they call me Diego Ahmadonna..haha...ok lah...i'll update my blog regarding my pop..till then..adios astalahuega