CRIPPLER'S LAIR

Only God Can Judge Me

Sunday, April 10, 2005

JJC 20min Assasin

When I look back at my life, i realise that life is and was never easy. Life has taught me quite a number of unforgettable lessons. I've to admit too that i've mellowed. Last Friday, right after rugby training, i've a good talk with Mr Seah. He's a nice chap. We talked from A to Z. He shared his experience of his army life and i shared my police experience. We also talked about the failure of Singapore education system. This is true but sad that Singapore education system is a total failure. Singapore can generate Einsteins but these Einsteins are emotionally insecured in some way. I bet their IQ is high but sadly, it's the opposite for their EQ. This is a worrying sign for the society. Furthermore, like what Mr Seah have said, the Education system here is a bane more than a boon to the young. Basically, people of the past generation , mostly uneducated, have this mentality of 'if i do something, what will happen to the people around me and its not about me that i'm worried about'. Now a days, the education system have forced children to be self-centered. Today's mentality is 'If i do something wrong, i'll take the responsibility but i dont care about people around me.I'm willing to take the responsibility.' This is a fucked up attitude and mentality. Other than that, Mr Seah and I have a good time chatting. The barbeque wasn't that superb. The food too wasn't that extravagant. Simple food with simple drink. Anyway, yeps, i'm back in school. I really miss school. Haha. Hmm...let me see, oh yeah, i haven't introduce my teachers to you guys. My Maths tutor is Mr Lee Hee Fock that Principal Dog. Haha. Well, i've always thought that he's a Mofo but my perception about him changed the moment i sat in his class. He is actually a good tutor with a good heart. He taught me a lot. Then i have Miss Tie for my economic tutor. She's notoriously fierce like what my friend Jolene would say. Yeps, her normal tone of voice is like an airplane passing by your ears. She's fucking good in teaching econs and i heard rumours that her notes are well praised amongst Economic elites in Singapore. This year is her final year teaching in JJC and i will not disappoint her. She rarely scolds me and instead she usually scolds another repeater in my class. Mr Seah told me that maybe she have given up on me but i dont believe this. I will work hard to get a good grade for econs. Mr C K Tan is my physics tutor and he is good too. His style of teaching is the same as Mr Lim Chee Seng and Mr Mak. Then i have Mdm Pathrose for GP. I swear she looks like Sadaf. I really cant concentrate in class having her as my GP tutor. Ben, if you are reading this, you would know what i meant. Haha. Ben, so clever! Haha. Ohh, i miss Benjamin Lee Xuping a.k.a The 90 plus kg Polar Bear. Hehe. And oh yeah, my ex-steady, Nina Liana Roslan, was posted to JJC. I'm like so 'lucky'! Haha. Yeps. She's there. I tried to avoid her and i managed to evade only for a while. Syaz told her that i'm repeating and that was how she found out that i'm back in school. She was surprised, more than surprised i guess, more to flabbergasted. Finally, i bumped into her last week. She said hi to me and what else can i do other than to reply her greeting. That's basic courtesy i tell you. Haha. Well, what done is done. Let history be history. Hmm...i really ask myself of all people, why did the late Pope John Paul 2 have to die? He represents peace. Even though he's a Catholic and i'm a Muslim, i still respect him because he's the bridge between Muslims and Christians. He had done so much for this world. Well, i guess God have his own idea. He'll be missed by many. Sigh. What's becoming of this world? Well, i've made a reflection. I've always insult myself saying that i'm fat and ugly and stuff like that. To me, whether it's the truth or not, i dont care! I work best using reverse psychology. Like what Ronaldinho said, I may not have the looks but i have the charm! Haha. Anyway, rugby season will start in 2 weeks time and i cant wait. I didnt get to play much last year because i wasnt that good. I was just a super-sub. This year, the team needs me. Coach needs some muscle in the team. He also needs someone who can read the game. I'm not that good but i hope i can help the team particularly the Forward pack. The team is pathetic. Most of them cant tackle well and most arent aggressive. What position then would i play? Haha. That's right. I'm a prop now! Haha. From backline i went on to be a prop. Haha. My stamina sucks and so the coach decided to play me for only 20min or so. My mission is to wipe out opponent's key players. Coach taught me dirty tackle and dirty tricks. Haha. Firstly, he taught me how to break opponent's ribs and dislocate their knee caps. This is getting interesting. I wish i can do that. Well, i really have to work on my stamina man. My fitness is now zero and to add to that misery, i've just pulled my hamstring. I've to rest and nurse my injury and this takes time. I hope i'll be back fighting healthy in the next 2 weeks. Hmm...well, i've been busy with work and mugging. Basically, i'm really worried about my A level. Will I be able to clear it this time around? I will! Will i get good grades? God willing I will! I'm optimistic. God have given me this 2nd chance. I'll take it and not squander it away. I shall not disappoint my parents anymore and most importantly, i shall not disappoint myself. Well, that's about it. Life is boring but i've always look on the bright side of life. Till we meet again!