Good To Be Back (Back With A Vengeance)

I'm back at school since 21st March
Move about without having to march
I know school sucks to the max
At least it's better than paying tax
Former class was S26 and now it's s27
Going to class is like going to heaven
Most are quiet but one is noisy
But atleast everybody welcomes me
My CT is Miss Tie, pronounced as Tee
She said she'll hunt me if i play rugby
I want her to know that i love rugby
I shan't train at the expense of study
Once a week training is enough
To me it is already tough
This will give me time to mug
I hope she won't bug
This year is her final year
I shan't disappoint her
I shall study hard like in secondary school
Never will I ever play a fool
To get to U is my aim
To fail is just so lame
This time i want to prove myself
That i'm not stupid but just fat & ugly
And that i'm not just good in rugby
But also very superb in my study
I shall pray to God for strength
For me to go the extra length
Give me O' God the intelligence
Plus will, discipline and dilligence
After that is back to NS
Where someone will kick my ass.

Love Is In The Air (Poems, Poems & Poems)

Ahmad Fathi - I’ll Wait For You Lay

Ever since I lay on you a stare
I just can’t resist your blissful flare
Of how you make your presence stay
And you simply make my day

Even when the rain keeps pouring down
When the sun is not around
You shine your light throughout on me
Brighten my path for me to see

I never thought that this will happen
My feelings for you grew out of a sudden
God gave me this wonderful moment
To lay my eyes on a special woman

I’ve been waiting for you girl
But you simply keep quiet
Every second pass and I’m growing tired
But I know it’s worth waiting
Never have I thought of quitting

How I wish that you can stay
Keep me safe on heaven’s bay
Listen to what I’ve to say
Even till my dying day
I’ll wait for you Lay


Ahmad Fathi - Please Return To Me

I’ve told you many times dear
That there’s nothing that I fear
Except to loose you from my arms
And forever miss your charms

I don’t want to close my eyes
Deed down my heart cries
To see our endless love
Lands in a guilty turf

I shall stand in the rain
And suffer the pain
So you’ll not spot
That I’m crying a lot

I shall sing to hide my sorrow
Hoping you’ll return tomorrow
I’ll only stop loving thee
If you can find my tears in the sea

If you would only give me a chance
To rekindle our true romance
Please reach my hand and return
Our love please don’t you burn

No one can replace you
Loving you is all I can do
The reason I’m here is you
To revive our love that’s true


Ahmad Fathi - From God To Me

God oh God, please bring her to me
I will never let her go away from me
I see in her eyes a love that suffice
I’ll always be there when she cries
With her by my side I feel complete
Because she’ll love me when I’m in need

God oh God, there’s nothing I want more
Than to be with her forever more
Please grant me oh this blissful wish
To her heart please let me reach

I don’t want to loose the greatest moment of life
That is to lose the girl of my life
I will love her with all my heart
I will love her right from the start
I don’t really care what others might say
Because I’ll love her until my dying day


Ahmad Fathi - I’m Not For You

I always lie to you
The same way that I always do
Saying that I love you
Don’t know whether it’s true.

Hugging and kissing all year round
Missing you when you’re not around
Girl I’m right here waiting
But in my heart I’m just pretending.

You look into my eyes
Didn’t even realise
I’m a fraud in disguise
Full of filth, full of lies.

I don’t wanna hurt you
Things that I detest to do
I’m a guy who’s senseless
I am a guy who’s ruthless.

Stay away from me
Far away probably
Don’t fall in love blindly
Cause it’ll hurt you deeply.


Ahmad Fathi - Life Goes On Without Her (Dedicated to Lay)

Some times I hear myself say
As to why must I stay
And wait for the golden moment
To be with this special woman

Every night I kneel down to pray
Crying in my heart while I say
Oh God there’s nothing that I want
Except to be with my special one

I sob to myself in disbelief
Asking why must she leave
I’ve always like nobody but her
And now she’s not even here

I look at the ebony sky at night
Searching for the brightest light
Hoping that we can be together
I don’t want to loose her ever

However, life has to continue
It’s time to move to a new avenue
Life will never be the same
I’ll only have myself to blame

At least I know I once like a maiden
A special lady that comes from heaven
I’ll treasure the moment of knowing her
For without her, I couldn’t have been here.


Ahmad Fathi - Me And You, Our Love Is True (Dedicated To Shafiq & Nurul)

Our love that is undivine
Our feelings that spread like vines
Expressing love to each other
We are meant to be together
From Heaven above,
Pour us with love.
To Earth below,
With romance that follows.
Our feelings without pain
The passion that will attain
The relationship that suffice
That follows with sacrifice
We discard everything for love
To obtain love from above
With you in my heart
And me in your blood
Together we will never part.
From the day that I was born
Till this moment on
We will be one soul, one heart
Till death do us apart.
This very romantic day
I just want myself to say
I think that you should know
I’ll love you till my dying day.


Ahmad Fathi - In God I Trust

The sunny sky
Once blue
Now an ebony room
Darkness looms
The future is bleak
The world stops spinning
I keep on losing
What do I do?
Where are you friends?
I see nothing
When the time is difficult
I see no one
Why do they run?
I need air to breathe
So I won’t drift
I knelt down
Looking at the ground
Shedding tears of sorrow
I don’t want to live tomorrow
I need the strength
I need somebody
I need the opportunity
I look up
I see the stars
I sense the Almighty
I put my two hands before me
I ask,
“God, I need you
To guide me through.”
Palms together on my face
Hope starts to resurface
Even when friends are gone
I’m never forlorn
When I need help
He will be there
He will help
He I trust
With this strength
I carry on
I pull through
I advance a bit
For I know I can do it.



Will it last?

Your eyes as beautiful as the glaring stars
Your lips as red as the flowery roses
With hair so black as the Cosmos background
Terra firma I’m on when you’re around

You I regard as the mighty sun
Shining all your love unto the earth
Fitted with you romance so great
We built a love that will never fade

You are to me like a lovely plant
You need me to water with care
I’ll make sure you’ll never wither
You will survive throughout any winter

Lightning and storm our eyes would see
After which the sun will call the bee
Amidst all confusion the truth will be read
Together as one our love will spread

We’ve build a bond so strong and robust
But I wonder how long will it last?
Till death, till old or till dawn or dusk?
Well, it is really up to us.
I believe our love is a magical one
I’ll make it last with my magical wand.

The Second Chance

Well, i've just came back from Kedah after participating in the Alor Star Sevens International. It was an eye opener for me. I've gained experience and the exposure i got was fantastic. I've managed to rub shoulders with Fijians. Muahaha. Basically, the Singapore Police Rugby Team lost all the matches there. We were in group B which consist of teams such as Bandaraya Dragons, RCB 69 & SRC Eagles. We didn't beat Bandaraya Dragons because most of the players in that team were former Malaysian national players. They are really very experienced. Secondly, we didn't get to beat RCB 69 because they are Aussies. They were super huge and some of them are even bigger than Fijian. RCB 69 is a club from Australia and they are really damn lousy taking the fact that they are from Australia. Lastly, the SRC Eagles. SRC Eagles comes from Sabah and the consist of 5 Fijians and 2 Thais. So can anyone tell me how on Earth are we suppose to beat SRC Eagles? Haha. We managed to go the the bowl round and it wasn't good either. We lost our last match to Kedah Sukma Rugby team. It is not because we are lousy or what but it's just that we can't communicate well and the wheather there is extremely hot. As a result of the weather, i got an eye infection. Sigh! My stay at Kedah wasn't a memorable one. I kept thinking about my A level results. What will i get? Will I fail? If I fail, what will I do next? All these questions kept flashing in my mind and it really bothered me. On Friday morning, the day of the release of the A level result, Aidil and me managed to call Mr Seah, our rugby teacher incharge. He told both of us that we managed to clear our GP but couldn't tell us our other results. We did a lot of shopping and smoking at Kedah. Haha. I bought a pair of Nike Air Force 1 shoes at a price of RM99. The moment i reached Singapore, i straight away went to Tan Tock Seng hospital at 11pm alone, carrying my luggage bag. The medical check up lasted till 1.30am. After that i went home and reached house at 2.30am. Guess what? I've got a 3 days MC. Yippie! This will give me time to think about what i'm going to do next. The very next day, i went down to JJC to talk to Mr Seah about my result. I've made up my mind. I really want to repeat to get a full A level cert with colourful grades, Insha-allah. Oh, guess what i got for A level? It's D for Maths C, O for Econs, O for Physics and B3 for GP. I feel like crying but what's the use of crying over spilt milk. Might as well lick it! Haha. Yeps, i went to the Vice Principal office and straight away he gave me the green light. He gave me a disruption form stating that the school have accepted me as a student and i'm allowed to disrupt my NS. Now it is my turn to give this form to Police NS. Sigh! Am I happy? Yes i'm happy because God have given me a 2nd chance. This 2nd chance is really rare. I feel really jealous seeing my friends getting good grades. Half of my soul told me to go to Polytechnic but the other half told me to repeat A level. The latter is really me. Hard headed and refusing to give up. That's why i decided to repeat. I'll end what i started and this time around, i end it with flying colours. I'll never ever give up. Some times in life, it's not about winning. It's about how you get up again to fight back. Well, always look on the bright side of life. Who knows? Maybe i can get straight As but let's be realistic. My target for A level is ABC, A for Maths, B for Physics and C for Econs and lastly, A2 for GP. Insha-allah can get! Nothing is impossible. Right now, i can't wait to start schooling and school will only start for me on 21st March. A week to go! Well, wish me all the best. Who knows? Maybe i can find true love. Maybe? Who knows? Who knows...

Big Break In Rugby Career

Monday 28/2/2005
Mass Cal today was pretty boring because i couldn't participate due to recuperation from my illness. The fever is long gone and now i'm all alone with the pathetic flu. After Mass Cal, we went to the mess to have breakfast afterwhich we headed to class for a lesson. Our OC taught us about Embassy and Consulates & at the end of the lesson, we had a long talk with the OC. He told us that we can actually upgrade our Pes. I wanna upgrade to Pes A. Hmm...but maybe being in Pes B is actually a blessing in disguise. If i were to repeat my A level as a private candidate, Pes B will be useful because i'll have the opportunity to work in an office from 9am to 5pm. Then after 5pm, i can take my time to study for my subjects and i can also apply for the A level night class. I also asked OC whether a person who has a colour blind vision can sign on for Police but he said that that is impossible. Right after class, we have our 3rd live shoot or frame. This time around, with proper breathing technique and squeezing method, i got 47/70 points. I passed! Yippie. I wish to get 50 or above for the next frame.

Tuesday 1/3/2005
First thing in the morning i did was to report to the guard room because i couldn't get a gate pass from Echo Coy due to my OC. He didn't on his handphone and so i couldn't get my gate pass. I need to go out of camp because i have a dental appointment. This time around, i got my gate pass from the Guard Room. I got out of camp as quickly as possible and went straight to 7-11 to buy a pack of cigarettes. This time around, it is Lucky Strike. Muahaha. I went to a nearby bus stop to smoke. Phew! After that, i went straight to National Dental Centre near SGH. Finally, the dentist gave me a pair of retainer for my teeth. Haha. The upper retainer have a design of a Union Jack on it and it looks cool like Carlito Carribean Cool. I heard that i was selected to go to Kedah for the Sevens competition representing Police Rugby Team. The prize money, i heard, is US$20,000 cold cash. I'm not kidding but i guess its difficult to win. There will be a team from Australia and some Fijians will be playing for some Malaysians club. For me, this competition is about exposure. If i can crash some Fijians or Aussies, i'll be damn and bloddy happy. Hehe. That needs courage! The Police Rugby Assosciation gave me permission to go home today to bring all the clothes i'll be needing for the trip and also to renew my passport. I took a cab all the way home but my i found out that my parents have already took my passport and wanted to help me renew my passport. Too bad they can't do it because i'm already 18 and they need my IC to renew my passport. So after taking a quick shower, i took a cab all the way to SGH again to meet up with my parents. Upon reaching there, i met my mom and we went over to my dad's car to proceed to ICA building at Lavendar. I managed to renew my passport in just 5 minutes. After that, we went to West Coast Food Center to have our dinner. After dinner, we went home to pack my stuff for the trip. I found out that i dont have the clothings for dinner or functions. I have to go all the way to LOT 1 to buy some smart pants and casual shirt for the tournament dinner. Sigh. When i reached there, the only shop that is availabe is Giordano and they dont sell any of the items i wanted. I was frustrated. I've forgotten about the issue. My next objective is to change Singapore money with Malaysian Ringgit and guess what? The money changer is closed. FUCK! Lastly, i met up with Aidil to go to TRACOM together. Sigh!

Wednesday 2/3/2005
We had Mass Cal with Panther at the old training shed because it was raining heavily and we can't perform our normal mass cal. Panther's mass cal was pathetic. Muahaha. After that, we had breakfast and the food for breakfast was Hokkien Mee. It really sux! After that, we went to report to the Transport Office to wait for the bus that was suppose to send us to Toa Payoh range. Unluckily, the Range Office cancelled our shoot for today. Sigh. We went back to the coy using the back way to prevent detection. We dont want Panther to force us do fatigue. Haha. We slept for almost 3 hours in our barrack. It was the sleep of our life in TRACOM. Haha. After that, we were suppose to play CS at the TRACOM computer lab but it was closed. So we went to the canteen to eat. Buddha, my squad mate, likes a girl by the name of Wendy, and guess what? Wendy was at the canteen too. We disturbed Buddha like hell. Muahaha. He's a crap! After that, we played Hearts, Taiti, Bride Connect in our barrack until 12 midnight. It was fun!

Thursday 3/3/2005
We didn't do much today. We straight away went to morning assembly and after that, proceeded straight to mess to have our breakfast. After breakfast, we went for a Racial Harmony tour at four different places of worship. First was the Leong Hwa Temple, 2nd was an indian temple, 3rd was Kampung Siglap mosque and finally the St Peter and Paul's church. It was educational for us and i learned a lot. After that, we went to Dojo late because we reached TRACOM late. Finally i got to meet Hui Sien. Haha. We finished early too. I finally packed my stuff for the trip because we are suppose to embark on our journey at 8.30pm tonight.