Ist Day At Work, The True Working Class Dude

My first day at work was rather tiring. It's a 12 hour job at Suntec City Convention Centre. I'm working for Legend Security as a security guard under crowd control. The pay is not that good but who cares because i really need the cash as well as the job experience. Sadiq, Hamid and me met up at City Hall MRT station and from there, off we went to Suntec. I swear to God that the job is darn boring but one thing for sure that you'll be able to see all sort of people in Singapore. There are the ugly Singaporeans without basic courtesy and manner, the good ones who will smile to you and lastly, Singaporean freaks. Well, i have to work with two veterans who taught me a lot of useful stuff that i can apply to my life. One old guy by the name of Bobby told me his experiences and especially his life. He was actually a choosey guy who hop job regurlarly. Look at him now, he's just a security guard. I'm not looking down on him but i can always learn from his mistake. There's this old John who always sit at the counter. He's a slacker. He did nothing much. I was unlucky not to work with my pals. My pals told me that they have to work with this Malay pervert. His name is Hassan and he is in his late 30s. According to my pals, all he talked about during work was girls, girls, girls, breasts, more breasts and sex. He calls breasts mangoes. What a moron! One thing we hate about him is that he didn't do his job at all. He was missing in action the whole 12 hours. He would tell my pals that he'll go to the toilet or do some patrolling and then he'll vanish into thin air. Gosh! Well, the food provided by the company wasn't bad at all and the chicken was nice. Yummy! Well, i met some pretty girls. What's the use of drooling about them when you can't have them? Right? Haha. When we were about to finish work, 2 girls passed by my counter and they looked at me but i quickly turned to my thumb and was fiddling with it. They laughed at me. They turned around and passed by my counter again and this time when they looked at me, i just turned my head away. They laughed at me again. One of the girls is drop dead pretty. Well, i guess they giggled because they were disgusted with my ugly look and my bulding stomach. 'Fat & ugly what!' We went home at 8.30pm. 12 hours of hard labour. It's just our first day at work and we can't take the pressure. My spine feels as if Brahma Bull the Rock have just spinebustered me. Just imagine a locomotive crashed unto ur back. That was how my back felt for long hours of standing and sitting. Ouch! Well, i have to end the entry here because i've to muster some sleep. Tomorrow will be a long day for my peeps and me. Adios Astalahuega

Dislocation & Confession

Boy oh boy! Today seems to be a very unlucky day for me. Firstly, i've screwed up all the A level papers especially economics and secondly, i didn't study at all today. Why so slack? Hmmm....firstly, i don't have the mood to study at all today due to the fact that i'm suppose to purposely fail my physics and econs to repeat next year. That's a brilliant plan isn't it? Secondly, I've to send my friend, Nicholas, to a nearby clinic from my school because a freak accident had happened. During a soccer match at the track's D, i accidentally stepped on nicholas' toe and he actually dislocated it. It's my fault and i admit it. He was angry at first but cooled down later. His middle toe was actually dislocated to the right and it looked freaky. I managed to touch his toe and it was cool. Haha.Hmmm...Sadiq and me accompanied him to a nearby clinic and it took a while before the doctor can attend to us. Well, basically, the doctor yanked and cranked Nicholas' toe to put it back in it's original position. I could hear the crackling sound of his bone when the doctor cranked it. It was cool man! I hope Nicholas is okay now. I'm sorry! I shouldn't have been so aggressive. Gosh, i must be a lousy soccer player. I guess so that's why i switched to rugby. Gosh! Sorry again Nicholas. Well, we have a chat with the doctor and he has this weird laughter. He laughed like a senile goat. Haha. Serious! While waiting for our turn to enter the room, we managed to take a few puff of cigarette. Texas 5. Yippie! Haha. Well, after that, went back to school with Nicholas to resume mugging but it wasn't fruitful at all. Gosh. Aidil, Hidayah and me went to My Kampung to eat and we had Indian Rojak and i had Nasi Lemak for dinner. Superb meal. Well, nothing much actually happened today except for the freaking accident. Hmmm...managed to sms PRINCESS on my way back home from school. It's been a while since i sms her. Miss her so much. When did i last see her? I guess i last met her near Kallang MRT station after watching Rugby 7's. Gosh....i've got to tell the truth. PRINCESS, i'm so sorry. I actually saw you the other time near Hereen right after the T-junction and before specialist centre. I saw a glimpse of you but i wasn't sure. I was afraid to say hi. Afraid that you'll be flabbergasted to see me in this sorry state. I'm always full of fear and regrets. I'm sorry Di. I'm sorry that i lied to you. I didn't mean it. I swear. Gosh. I just don't want you to.....nvm.....again, i'm sorry. That just wasn't me. period. :( Well, i got to go and so i'll end it here. I've let many people down..........................

Happy Eid Mubarak

Hmmm...i want to wish all my muslim fwens a happy eid mubarak. Haha.Well,i didn't do much visiting today because i've to go home early due to Rugby International Test between All Blacks and Auzzure. I reached home at 5.45pm and then settled down to watch the match. Haha.I collected about $100 and off i went. Hehe. I can use this money to buy clothes for the school's graduation night. What should i buy? Hmm...but i don't feel like going man because what's the point? I'll be repeating anyway. There's always next year. Enough with that! Hmmm...it was my first time seeing Ma'a Nonu plays for All Blacks. He's one of my favourite player in All Blacks. He's big, fast and he surely looks like a forward. Guess what? He's actually a winger. Haha. I miss Jonah Lomu. When will he be coming back? I really want to see him play in the next Rugby World Cup. I hope he can make it. One more thing. I also saw Jason Robinson played yesterday. He was superb. I want to run like him man. He's like a Flash. Gosh! Anyway, i got to end here because i need to study again for my maths. Well, adios!

Ahmad Fathi - Yasser Arafat

Yasser Arafat

In a world filled with animosity
Stood a hero amidst intensity
His presence portrayed spirit
To keep the ardour burning
And march on winning
He held his head high
Even when others defy
He shed tears for freedom
Not for stardom
Not for himself
But for his people
Others condemned him
Discounted him
Criticised him
But he stood his ground
And fought for his land
Not for him, for his man
Even in sickness
In darkness
In rain
He served
With honour and pride
With his fullest heart
He was the people’s friend
The people’s hope
The people’s inspiration
Full of admiration
He left with nothing
No liberation
No separation
But in death,
He returned to his people as a hero
To his God as a martyr who fought hard
And may God bless Yasser Arafat

Ahmad Fathi - In God I Trust

In God I Trust

The sunny sky
Once blue
Now an ebony room
Darkness looms
The future is bleak
The world stops spinning
I keep on losing
What do I do?
Where are you friends?
I see nothing
When the time is difficult
I see no one
Why do they run?
I need air to breathe
So I won’t drift
I knelt down
Looking at the ground
Shedding tears of sorrow
I don’t want to live tomorrow
I need the strength
I need somebody
I need the opportunity
I look up
I see the stars
I sense the Almighty
I put my two hands before me
I ask,
“God, I need you
To guide me through.”
Palms together on my face
Hope starts to resurface
Even when friends are gone
I’m never forlorn
When I need help
He will be there
He will help
He I trust
With this strength
I carry on
I pull through
I advance a bit
For I know I can do it.

I Have Only Myself To Blame

Firstly,I want to admit that i usually make great mistakes in my life. It all started way back in my secondary school era.I guess i'm the naive type of person cagged in a normal mammon biological chaste.During secondary 3,i was able to grab the opportunity of taking 3 pure sciences subjects, Chemistry, Physics and Biology, and also Additional Maths. Well,i thought secondary 3 work didn't require hard labour and so i went on playing and fooling around for a year.I got cocky too.I thought pure science subjects were everything.My cockiness brought me to avenues of troubles. I got caned in school for getting involved in a riot and fight in a car park. This is all thank to my cockiness. I also used to think that i was a smart ass. God forgive me!I squandered my opportunity to go to a good Junior College because by the end of secondary 3, i was failing almost everything except English,Malay and E-Maths.I got myself promoted but have to drop pure Physics and pure Chemistry. I have to take Combined Physics and Chemistry the following year.If i didn't fool around that year,i would have landed myself in some good college. Secondary 4 wasn't that bad. My friends and I found mugging friends from RGS and we started mugging together at the Woodlands Regional Library almost everyday.It was a fruitful friendship.I thanked God for giving me 15 points for my L1R5. So i decided to apply for a good college.First stop was ACJC.Before we sit for our exams,i read up the Junior College catalogue book and i found out that the cut off point for ACJC for year 2002 was 15. Thus, that made me want to join ACJC because i know if i mix around with lots of stoodious people,they will inspire me to work hard. Then the result for the posting of the school came after our first 3 months program. I was shocked to hear that i was to posted to JJC. Why JJC? Well, i decided to appeal to go to ACJC because i can always use my Dragonboat cca as a passport.Guess what? I didn't appeal because firstly my dad wasn't happy with me wanting to go to ACJC and secondly it's a Methodist school. Fuck it man! I shouldn't have listened to my father. I started my life well in JJC. First thing that i looked out for was mugging partners. I searched high and low for them but i couldn't find any. I was depressed.So i turned to my classmates to see whether anyone wants to be my study partner. My effort was futile.My friends,especially those egoistic guys, were actually a burden to me. What do they do? Instead of motivating others, they discounted them and especially me. What's the use of being clever if you're not modest and humble? FUCK THEM. Well, i actually managed to endure with their feats for 2 years. I was again further depressed. I started to hang around with the JJC Malaygangstars and guess what, my old habit started to resurface.I was my old self again.I started to fool around for the whole of J1 and when Promo came,i started to buck up but it was too late.I managed to get promoted but with bad results, B-E-F. I got F for Econs. What the hell! I've got no self-discipline. I'm not blaming the egoistic guys or the Malaygangstars but i have to blame myself for not getting into a good college and not mixing with geeks. Well, all i need was my good old friends,Maly,Aizat,Shafiq and Nurul. I managed to get to the college in the first place because of them. We helped each other a lot. We shouldn't have splitted.We should have sticked together in the same college but the problem was they got good results to get to good colleges but not for Aizat and me. What can i do with 15? Haha. Hmmm...well, managing to get to j2 wasn't a boon at all. J2 means hell for me. Actually, i've already planned to study in November and December but without self-discipline, i simply couldn't do it. This is all thank to Soccer and Rugby. After quiting soccer, i joined rugby. I know what you guys are thinking right now but i guess your notions about me quiting soccer and joining rugby is absolutely wrong.Nah, i didn't join rugby because of that maiden Loh Lay Kwan. Haha. Anyway, my December was burnt up by rugby training and i couldn't do much studying because i have to nurse my mid-foot injury in early December. So,i squandered another opportunity to redeem myself. Hmmm...rugby prolonged until July and right after July, Mid Year Examination came.Most rugby guys were not prepared and obviously most failed. There is no use in getting fourth in rugby inter-school if you screwed up your academic. Well, this bad situation prolonged until Prelims and A level examination. While i'm writing down this entry, it's still A level period and i've just finished maths paper 1 yesterday in which i screwed up again. Sigh. Do i need another year to buck up? Is it worth to repeat? Well, i'm really confused as to whether should i repeat another year to rake in good results in the next A Level. Should i? My parents don't mind and yeah,i've yet to discuss with them about this. Gosh.I've disappoint my parents again. You see, my life is full of regrets,bad mistakes and choices. Why God? The question is whether to repeat or to go to Poly after A level? I'm totally lost. Please God don't tell me that when i grow up,i'll make stupid mistakes like marrying the wrong woman,choosing a wrong job and bla bla bla.Those mistakes are grave and i really want to avoid them.Gosh, when can i ever learn? I understand that i'm the type that learn from past mistakes and i'm good at that but don't tell me i'm going to make grave mistakes before doing something right. I have to change for the better. Well, i think i should stop blabbering now and end my entry here. God,bless me with blissful life!

Me,Hisham,Arrauf,Aizat,Bao 

Screwed By Cambridge, Scrutinised By The System

Well, fuck the system. I've just got scrutinised again today when taking my A level GP paper. I chose the wrong question for composition and i didn't complete my comprehension. So much for my hard work and now it's going down the drain. Gosh, i've got to pull myself up by getting really good grades for the other 3 subjects. I think i can get it for maths and maybe physics but i really don't have a clue about economics. Screw Cambridge! Well, i'm not in the mood to write any further and i shall just end it here. To all my friends, don't ever give up. The battle is not over yet. There's still ray oh hope. God will help those who help themselves first and those who believe in Him. All the best! Sigh!

Bush Or Kerry, Both Are Scarry

Well well well. What do we have today? American election! Yeah,the most talked about event. It sure will intrig me. Who do i support? None! Who do i want to see winning this fucking election? Kerry ofcourse. Well,does election really show that Americans have suffrage? I bet not because the fucking Swines (The Jews) will obviously sway the voting result to their advantage if Kerry is winning. Well, i really don't care! The Americans ought to learn to respect other people's right and law. They do not have the final fucking say on any matter. Hmmm...and America like to poke its nose into other people's business. Obviously it's unfair of me to criticise the Americans for what they have not done but it's partly their fault too. Why chose a despot when you can choose someone neutral. Just look at the American leaders! They are hypocrites who are xenophobic. Why enter Iraq and Afghanistan when it's not their bloody business? Is it because of the oil? Money? Fame? Testing of military supremecy? Answer this truthfully Bush! George W Bush Jr is a fucking liar who ought to be impaled. Firstly, instead of concentrating too much on America's foreign policy, he should help his people fight AIDS, poverty, social ills (America is famous for this), child deliquency, attend to the minority and lastly, fight extremism and terrorism from within. Ofcourse i'm not saying that America should slacken their foreign policy but they should play by the UN's rule book. Which is bigger? UN or US? Their method of launching war on something not potential is obviously dangerous as they can trigger retaliation or backlash. They should instead annihilate clear and present danger. Are their actions trying to say that any parties who might seem to be threats to their interest can be eradicated? If this is so, religions all over the world will start slaying people who they might consider infidels. This should not be the case. America, should thus think before they act. Reflect in the mirror first before pointing fingers at others. Someone got to tell America that they have to wake up because they are actually victims of their own success. Like i would prefer to say, 'If you do nothing, everything will be fine. If you do something, everything will go wrong'. To all samaritans, ponder this before you sleep today. The Earth needs our help. Oh, where are thee Captain Planet?